Never Ending

Chapter Twenty-One

For the whole duration of the filming, mama and I grew closer. It felt like I was a child again. When we came back to Berlin, it's already summer. I stood there, alone in the middle of the crowded arrival area of the airport and wait for my brother's arrival. As soon as I saw him, I run towards him and welcome him in a hug. He dropped his bags and hugged me back.

"Come." I said when I pull out of the hug. "Mama and Papa are expecting you." I said as I link my arms around his. "When will the guys arrive?" I asked, as I help him carry his bags.

"Next month and they can't wait to come here." He said grinning.

While on the car, I asked him how things went and when is his graduation day. He told me a few details until he brought up something I haven't thought about for months.

"He went back to Italy you know." He said humors left in his face and voice.

"Oh." Was the only thing I managed first. I felt a pang in my chest. It never really occurred to me that he'd get tired of waiting. "I have no idea." I said, trying to hide the fact that it somehow hurts me.

"He has called me too you know. You never gave him a chance to explain himself." I look at the window, avoiding his gaze, afraid that he might see how I feel through my eyes. "I wasn't expecting that kind of attitude from you, Vita."

It felt like he slapped me right in my face. He never calls me Vita unless I have done something terribly wrong. "What?" I snapped, turning to look at him. "You expect me to listen to him? After all that he has done to me and to my family? I prefer not to hear anything from him at all."

His brows creased and look at me sternly. "You're being immature. You can't judge him from the things that Papa and Mama must have told you."

"They never antagonize him to me. I chose to think of him differently." I defended.

"Then you're stupid." He said then rolls his eyes at me and look at the window on his side. I was about to retort and fight him but when Nikolai is acting like this, it meant he doesn't want to hear anything of it.

I storm inside the mansion when we arrived. While ascending to the staircase, I heard Mama asked Nikolai.

"What has happened?" She asked.

"Don't mind her. She's just being unreasonable." He said.

I open my door and slam it shut. I hate Nikolai. We haven't really had any quarrels like this as we have tried to get along well. I lie down on my bed and hug a pillow tightly as streams of water flows out of my eyes. I hate him not because he has told me I'm stupid but because he has brought up something I wasn't prepared to face.

I still love Callum but I haven't quite figure out if I still want him back or to hear him explain everything. I wasn't ready to hear him say that he's sorry that he didn't exactly love me for me. Nikolai is right, I'm being stupid and unreasonable but he doesn't understand. Nobody can understand.

For months, I haven't been able to open my phone. Afraid that if I opened it, Callum's name would appear. I'm avoiding him for reasons that may seem stupid but it's honestly because I'm just trying to avoid him because it hurts me whenever I hear his name, or see his face and hear his voice. It reminds me of the love that I once had and can never have again. He loved Antoinette and they had a child! And I'm just a girl who happens to look exactly like her. It felt like I was just a vessel of his love he cannot give to Antoinette anymore. His love isn't for me but for her and nobody could understand how terrible it is cause nobody loves someone who has loved someone else before that looks exactly like them.