Benni's POV:
Things have really changes sense last week. I mean i acually get along with Natan better and Ray's mate is really nice. Maybe, it was me that needed to change. But then again, I wasn't the reason things were the way they were. I was left, not the other way around.
I was in the kitchen, making waffles for everyone when I heard yelling down the hall. I put my stuff down, and went to investigate.
Nathan and Chris were fighting.
"What is going on here?" I questioned. "Nothing Benicia, go back to the kitchen, it's none of your concern." said Nathan. "Umm.. the hell it isn't Chris is my pack, and my family, anything having to do with him or Ray is my concern. No matter what!" I sneered back. Chris took two quick steps my way, placing himself between me and Nate. "No, it doens't involve you!" roared Nate. "IT DOES!!" I snapped. I saw Chris tense and watched as Nathan began to shake. I quickly shoved myself in front of Chris. "You hurt him and I'll never come back to you!" I remarked. This was ridiculous Chris was my business. Nate would have to get over his whole macho man act.
I turned around, pushing Chris down the hall in front of me. I could hear Nate growling behind me. "Until you're ready to get over your macho man act you can stay from me and MY pack." I emphasized. I wasn't in the mood to care what he thought about my comment.
I pushed Chris into the kitchen and went to resuming my cooking.
I yelled when everything was finished. The kitchen was full of people right away, grabbing food, and heading their seperate ways to eat.
I saw Ray enter the room with Lucie on his arm. I could say he look really happy, maybe that's what I'm suppose to feel. Except, I don't. I fell good around him but he makes me so angry.
I watch as Ray grabs her a plate and she starts filling the plate with food. They walked quietly to the corner of the room, where the resumed to feed each other. I could see how happy he was here. Why couldn't I feel that?
I suddenly didn't feel hungry anymore. I told Chris i was tired and went up stairs to think. I had barely gotten half way across the room, before I was slammed against the wall. Nate was holding me by the throat. I could see that his wolf was in control. Shit! This wasn't good. I started struggling, trying to get free. "N...a...t...e..! I... c...a...n...t...b...r...e...a...t...h." I choked out. I could feel myself fading in and out. I was about to lose conciousness when he let go of my throat and hit me. I flew across the room, hitting the side of the bed. "Ahh!" I cried out in pain. Nate was advancing toward me! "Nate, stop it's me! Don't hurt me! Not again!" I said, starting to cry. I couldn't believe this. I saw Nate's eyes flickering between his wolves and his. He was fighting to get control. I took this time to run.
I quickly ran to my bathroom and locked myself in. "Benni! I'm so sorry! Please come out!" I heard Nate say. I could tell he was in control now, but he hurt me. I was sure that I had a black eye, and a ring around my neck. This was going to be fun to explain. I knew with my wolf healing it would be completely gone by tomorrow. But until then, I would have to find away to hide the marks.
I slowly and carefully wedged the bathroom door open. Nate was slumped at the foot of the door hunched on his knees, bent over.... crying. "Nate, I'm fine, Don't cry." I whispered. "I am so sorry! I can't believe I lost control like that." He cried. I started to walk cautiously around him, when he aruptly turned and pulled me against him. He wrapped his arms tight around me and whispered he was sorry over and over again. I hugged him back. I knew I loved him with all my heart, no matter what he did to me. I made a promise to myself then, that I would be nicer to him and be a proper mate, when I wasn't mad, or losing my temper.
~Note, may get a little growdy here, don't read if you don't like stuff sexual~
We were sitting there hugging each other when he rubbed his hand down my thigh. I couldn't help it this was one of my turn on spots, I moaned. Not quietly either. I locked one of my hands in his hair, and the other scratching down his back. I heard him groan.
Before I had time to blink we were on the bed. We starting kissing and things got really heated. I started pulling his shirt off, then he did mine. I grabbed the belt on his pants, but was struggling with it so I growled. I felt him smile against my lips, then the belt was gone.
I unbuckled his pants and pushed them down. I can't believe I'm doing this, espiecally after last time. Nate unbuttoned my pants and in one smooth tug he pulled of my pants and panties. I was laying there in only my bra. In one snap that was gone to. I felt his eyes raking over my body, then heard his moan of approval.
I swipped his boxers off in one swift motion and took him in. Not going to brag, but he was big.
I started to think about what I was doing. I then remembered the last time we were in this predicatment. I was left, pregnant and alone. I started to push him off, but I was to late. In two quick motions, he shoved a condom on and shoved his shaft deep inside my core! "Ahh!" I started to scream. He was big I may have had a kid but being a wolf you heal and go back to normal. I felt his shaft stretching me and then he starting pulling out and pushing in. I could tell he cared by how careful he was being. We got into a steady pace. in, out, in, out. After about three hours, he finally pulled out and lay next to me. He wrapped his arms around me and just starred start ahead.
I didn't know what to do. This was only my second time, and my first wasn't the best.
*LIVE*LAUGH*LOVE
~Hope you enjoyed this chapter, different I know~
