I DID THE THING FOR TYJOS B DAY^^
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A tiny tiny tiny tiny trigger warning I guess.
Just being safe
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"Sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind."
How can I do that when my mind is the one thing that is keeping me here?
Yet at the same time causing more scars than ever.
"Josh? Josh, did you hear me? What does the quote 'sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind' mean?"
Mr. Hail made us read a book about world wide quotes and what they personally mean to you.
"I'm not comfortable to share what that personally means to me."
I heard snickering at the back of the classroom.
"That is quite alright Josh. Urie? How about you? You seem to be talking quite a lot."
Everyone but me turned to look at Brendon.
He is a school jock that likes to sleep around with College whores.
"Uh- it means how depressed you are."
They all laugh again.
"No it doesn't."
A quiet voice was heard from the middle of the room.
It was Tyler.
"What twerp?"
How can the teacher let Brendon talk to him like that?
"I said no it doesn't. You clearly don't have an average IQ when you can't even describe what something means to you, you just make a stupid joke if that's what you wanna call it and hope that your little group laughs with you."
I can't believe he is saying this to Brendon.
Tyler is in for some serious face pounding after class, if he even lives till then.
"Ok 'Tyler,' if you are sooo smart then what does it mean?"
"It depends on who you ask actually."
Tyler stands up and makes eye contact with Brendon.
"What that person has gone through and how it has effected them. For example, a person like you must have a lot of self hatred since you bully helpless kids around for your entertainment. Possibly you are trying to battle your past?"
This shuts Brendon up real quick.
But Tyler's not done.
He keeps talking.
"Or for instance..."
He looks around the room making eye contact with everyone.
"You may think that you have tried your best and you worth nothing anymore? All you wanna do is kill those thoughts, also known as, your mind. Leading to the partial quote, to stay alive. For others this may be a metaphor..."
Tyler now turns to me making eye contact while talking.
"But for others it is quite literal. You feel that you might actually wanna...die? If that is the correct phrase to use? You want to oh so desperately 'kill' your mind. But you can't. Your mind is the only thing keeping you alive..."
He understands.
He knows what it's like.
I tilt my head down.
"But yet it's the thing hurting you the most."
Tyler sits back down, scooting his chair in as if this was normal to him.
"Thank you Tyler for that thorough explanation. I'm sure you have reached people on a personal level."
Mr. Hail spoke sincerely.
Brendon's face is completely dumb founded.
We continue in class until I feel something hit my back.
I turn around to see a crumpled sticky note and a Tyler acting like he is writing.
He motions with his pen to open it.
I carefully unraveled it being careful not to tear the thin paper.
It read in sloppy but readable handwriting-
Sorry I had to throw it at you, I'm sure Mr. Hail would flip if I just stood up. Anyways, I know how you feel. I saw a paper left on your desk the other day. You wrote down all your thoughts, and honestly, I couldn't be more relieved that someone knows how I feel. Oh and btw, you are pretty cute.
Call me if you need to talk or if you wanna hang ### ### ####<3
I just smile, turning around to Tyler rising him my reply.
I wrote-
It's good to know that someone in the same room as you can stand up for something you would never be able to say. Your hair is really fluffy today. Just needed to say that. I won't hesitate to text you cutie ;)
I could here Tyler silently squeal behind me.
I just laughed and continued to write about how a single boy could change how you think of things with a few simple words.
'I know how you feel.'
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Not spell checked btw
This was supposed to have a major trigger warning but that changed a bit lol.
HAPPY BIRTGDAY TYLER OMG OMG OMG.
Night guys stay alive|-/
