(Authors note: There will be no more journal entries from Julia at the beginning of each chapter. Thanks.)
Today is Monday. I don't want to go to school but my parents will think something is wrong if I don't go. Looking in the mirror feels different. I don't like what I see anymore. Taking a shower is different. It seems to drag on forever and the water seems too cold. Everything seems different. Today is Monday. I don't want to go to school.
Mom drives me to school today. I didn't want her too but she insisted. She is really annoying. I get out of the car after 20 minutes of her trying to talk to me and me replying with one-word answers. Going into the doors of the school seems different today. I stretch a fake smile across my face and stride confidently into the school. I act like nothing happened.
I wonder if this is how Raven felt, walking in here. Maybe she was scared or angry or sad. I am all of these things right now. I can feel the tremor in my knees and I pray that it is invisible to everyone else. I can feel the anger in my chest and the sadness weighing me down. As I walk through the hall my heart stops. I see a flyer with her face on it. I look at the words under her smiling face: Rest In Peace.
I know that today is going to suck.
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After she killed herself
KurzgeschichtenJulia is a popular girl in school. She bullied a girl named Raven. But one Saturday morning she wakes up to the news that Raven is dead. Now, she struggles with the guilt of driving a girl to suicide. I wrote a story called Dear Bully, now I will wr...
