Hindsight

Loss

As the sun shone through the waiting area at Chicago Med, the rest of the Intelligence Unit waited nervously for updates on Erin.
Having been told almost nothing, they had no idea what to expect. All they knew for certain was that it wasn't looking great for one of their friend who was still in Colombia.

Kim laid asleep, resting her head on Adam's lap while he absentmindedly caressed her cheek. Kevin nervously bit his nails as Olinsky came back with their very much needed cups of coffee.

"He's out again." Olinsky stated after handing his colleagues their cups and sat back down on one of the chairs.
Voight who have been silent since their arrival had gone out, taking an obligatory cigarette break every five minutes. Each time, coming back with an even stronger pungent.

"Can't blame him though." Kevin said.

Voight wasn't in the mood for chitchatting for obvious reasons and they knew better than to pry answers out of him. Ever since Camille had past, hospitals were his weakness. He just couldn't tolerate the suffering and sadness a hospital carries.

Adam looked at the time on his phone then at the clock on the wall.
12:34pm
"What's taking them so long? It's already been over a hour...She's fine, isn't she, Al?"

Olinsky had been the one to inform his team of their arrival and briefed them on the basics of what he've been told from Voight.

Jay had been shot and is still fighting for his life.
Will had flown out to Colombia in order to help his brother.
Antonio is still in Colombia keeping an eye on Jay.
Carlos Solis got away.
Someone tried to finish Erin at the hospital in Colombia.
Hence, them rushing back to Chicago.

Olinsky had left out the solemn parts of reality. He just couldn't get himself to say those words.
Voight hadn't told anyone but Olinsky about what had happened due to the fact that he didn't want to break in front of his subordinates. Out of all the days they needed him to be strong, today was the day.

"She will."

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"I'm so sorry kiddo..." Voight said, sitting by his daughter's bedside as he held her limp hand close to his chest. Absolutely enervated by the state she was in. Her face was now free from blood and tears but it still knocked the wind right out of him. Having been sedated for the past hour, he was grateful that she could finally get some much need rest.

"It's all my fault..." he said in a whisper as his tears fell down his cheeks. This was the first time since his wife had passed many years ago that he have let tears fall down his face. He can't even fathom the terrible things she've endured in the hands of Carlos. He didn't want to believe it but his mind couldn't stop thinking that perhaps it was true. He was in denial, a coping mechanism that most people face when their loved ones were hurt.

Voight caressed her cheek, he needed her to know how badly he felt for. She's the only family he had left. The last best thing he had in his life. She means the absolute world to him.
"If only I came earlier...I'm sorry kiddo...Please forgive me..."

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"How is she?" Olinsky asked the moment he saw Dr Choi walking towards them. Almost immediately, they all got up. Voight scurried over just in time from his break. Adam lightly nudged Kim to wake up before listening to the update they've all been waiting for.

"She's awake. And she've suffered quite the trauma..." Dr Choi informed. "Considering the amount of injuries she've sustained, she's doing as well as expected. Physically, she'll be fine in no time but mentally...only time will tell."