Count on Me

Chapter 21

Knock,  knock, knock......

I rappidly knocked the door to Tanya's apartment.  I didn't know where to go after Calan left,  I was done crying I didn't want to cry over a guy anymore,  especially since I still have a lot of work to do. When the door didn't open,  I knocked again this time harder and more rapid. 

Just as my knuckles were about to reach the door,  it opened,  causing me to nearly knock Taya in the face.  She stood in her pajamas that were covered in a cute bird pattern. With tea in her hand she stared at me with a shocked expression.

"Row? What are you doing here? Have you been crying?" she asked all her questions at once, and probably refering to my still puffy eyes.

"Can I use your punching bag? " I asked not really wanting to explain further.

"Sure Honey,  but why not use yours? " She asked me as I walked past her into her apartment.

"I didn't feel like being alone. " I told her quickly,  and heading into the spareroom,  that we usually used for sparring. And as I walked in, I saw the bright red punching bag hanging in the corner.

But before I could take another step,  Tan grabbed my arm and spun me around so I was facing her.

"Row, what happened to you? "she asked,  concern spread across her face.

"Nothing,  I'm fine,  I just need to punch something. "I told her,  and stripped down to my sportsbra and shorts,  and not even bothering with the boxing gloves,  I started to punch the bag,  getting rid of my frustration, and the hurt in my heart.

Punch,punch...

Why would he do this to me. ..

Punch,  punch....

..we were fine,  everything went so well...

..punch,punch,punch..

... untill he did this. ..

..punch,  punch..

... does he not understand that this hurts me as well....

..PUNCH, punch...

..Why did he tell me that. ..

punch,punch...

that he loves me?..

punch...

And with that I just couldn't go on anymore,  I was so drained, I couldn't punch anymore. As I leaned my head against the punching bag,  I felt myself hickup, and as I reached for my cheek it was soaking with tears,  Whoa when did I start crying again?

"Whoa he did that to you? "I heard Tanya's voice from the doorway. 

Oh shit did I...

"Yeah,  you said that all aloud. " she answered the question In my head. And walked over to me. Embracing me in a tight hug,  and I couldn't ask for anything more in that moment,  than the comfort that her hug brought.

"Sit down "she ordered and I obeyed,  my legs loving me for letting them rest.

"I'll be right back "she said and quickly hurried out of the room.

As I sat against the wall I stared down at my hands,  seeing that my knuckles were raw and slightly bloody for punching the bag without gloves, but right now I couldn't give a damn.

As I leaned against the wall I felt my eyelids grew heavy,  and slowly close,  enveloping me in a comfortable darkness,  but before I could drift off to sleep,  I heard Tanya's voice saying, "Here we are,  this will make you feel better. ",and I jolted back to conciousness, as she handed me a steaming cup of tea.

Taking a sip I let the warm liquid run down my throat,  and I instantly relaxed.  Tanya sat down next to me putting the first aid kit beside her and pulling out some bandages and disinfectant.

"Do you know why I was so hard on you,  last time you introdused me to Calan?" she asked,  pouring some disinfectant onto a cotton ball.

"Because he's a distraction and the mission first priority.  " I hissed in pain as she applied the disinfectant to my wounds.

"Not exactly " she said,  continuing to disinfect my hands,  and I looked at her confused.

"You see Rowan, the reason why I said those things were because I wanted to protect you,  I didn't want you to get hurt like I did. " she said and started binding my hands,  I looked at her,  begging her with my eyes to elaborate. And felt my hands slightly itch as my skin stitched itself back together. But didn't want Tanya yo know my secret so I didn't bother stopping her from bandaging my hands.

"It was about four years ago and I too was on a very important mission,  where I had to stay in Italy for about six months.  Thats where I met him,  He was an American, and I fell for him hard. We met in a little coffee shop, and just clicked,  it was wonderful, and I felt that I could just be myself around him. We could talk for hours about nothing,  and never get bored.  "she said  a glint of happiness in her eyes,  but her expression quickly changes to a sad one,  as she continued,  "But it was not ment to last,  one night we were walking down the streets of Italy the little fairylights,  glowing in the dark, it was the most romantic thing I have ever experienced.  But as I was about to tell him who I really was he was shot in the back.I never saw who took the shot,  but I was pretty sure that my targer must have noticed me and chose to get to me through the one I loved.  And he left him just alive enough to let me watch him die slowly and painfully. ." she explained, and I saw a tear leak out of her eye,  but she quickly whiped it away after finished binding my hands.

"I'm so sorry "I said as a tear escaped my eye as well.

"There's nothing you could have done. "she said, "..but the point is Rowan,  I just want to protect you,  I don't want you to suffer like I did."

"I understand and you're right "I said,  although it hurt to admit it.

"I'm so sorry Row." she said,  and I just nodded,  too tired to even reply. "Come on,  let's get you to bed " she said and helped me up.  And walked me over to the couch,  where I gladly just colapsed.  Instantly feeling my eyes close.

The last thing I remember was Tanya saying, "Sweet dreams, Row. I sure hope I'm not wrong." as she draped a comfy blanket over me, and giving me a kiss on the head, as I drifted off to sleep.

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A/N:

Hey guys sorry it's soo short,  but it was sort of just a filler on Tanya's past. But I hope you all liked it.  And that you keep reading :-)

Anywho I would like to dedicate this chapter to dancewriter512, Thank you for you're awesome comments it really means alot to me,  and thaks everyone for reading my book,  I can't tell you all how much it means to me, ugh I could just hug you all.

soooo,  I'm still waiting to hearfrom you guys if you would like it if I wrotea fanfic,  so please tell?

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