Random things I wrote

My star

My life was technically crap but not all of it I had my ups and down, my pain and relief but that's what makes life doesn't it?

I was born of the springs of April my parents second, I mean third miracle- there first was each other than my older sister.

I was an active boy and could you blame me? Energy followed through me like it was part of me.

Life was great it was amazing to be honest. I was going to start school and Lucy-my older sister- was in her final year but that was what I thought of my life when I was younger.

I never knew what happened behind my parents door, their arguments about a new baby and my dad losing his job and the monthly bills over due. All I knew was my life was amazing for a six year old.

One day after school while we were finishing up are homework my dad came back home reeking of alcohol, his eyes were blood shot and tie was hanging around his shoulders, his suit case was hanging open like my sisters' mouth and I at the time didn't know what was happening all I knew he was drunk and my dad got drunk on occasions but not like this.

"Johnny and Lucy go upstairs now." I wanted to complain and say I didn't  finish my homework but the look my mother was giving was so freighting I peed myself a little.

Lucy grabbed my wrist and pulled me upstairs, but my dad came in front of us," Where ya going kids?" His breath made me want to gag as he slurred his words.

"Where just going upstairs." Lucy said calmly.

"Don't ya wanna play with you old man? Maybe a few games of pin the tail in the donkey."

"No we have homework to finish." I at the time really wanted to leave that area but my dad was in the way.

"WHO THE DO YOU THING YOU ARE SAYING NO TO ME?" My father boomed. At that moment I remember what Lucy told me about a drunk person and how their moods changes.

"But I'll never drink Lucy I promise." I said holding out my pinky.

"I know you won't and you want ever hurt anyone?"

"Yeah I promise no I PINKY PROMISE!!!" I held out my pink waiting for her to complete my oath and she did.

"Get out my way Nigel." I heard my sister calling my dad Nigel all the time when he got drunk but I never knew why.

"You shall not call me Nigel! I am your father with out me you would have bull in your lives! So you shall call me father, dad but never Nigel."

"I can call you what ever I want you jerk now get out of our way so we can finish our homework."

My father face darkened and he lifted his hand while Lucy's grip on me tighten before he could slap her my mother came in,"Nigel get in here right now!" My mother was standing at the door frame of the kitchen her cheek was glowing red with an imprint of an hand.

My heart stammered in my chest because it was the first time I realized that my daddy hits my mother and almost my sister.

My father grunted and walked away while Lucy yanked me upstairs quickly she took me to her room locked her door and tugged me to sleep. And while I was drifting off I heard the draws being opened and closed and then heard the bathroom door being locked and finally heard a sigh of satisfaction inside and when I wanted to go check I saw that underneath the door was something red and wet so I quickly climbed back and tried to sleep.

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After a few weeks my family were out on the streets and I finally saw that my mother was pregnant, at first I though because she was fat then I realized the truth when she told me to put her hand in her belly and I felt this tiny kick.