Under a Paper Moon (Jalex)

Chapter 23

DEDICATED TO HankTheNerd BC I'M ALWAYS IN TEARS OF LAUGHTER LATELY AND I JUST YEAH

Alex's POV

So nearly a full month into 2014 and I'm enaged and I'm still annoyed. No not with Jack because we all know that never lasts no matter how hard I try for it to. I was supposed to be the one proposing as the elder of us I'm meant to protect Jack although lately I had to admit I needed a bit of babying, well a lot. I'd swung back into the phase of not wanting to wake up in the mornings and honestly it scared the crap out of me because I had the man of my dreams and everything was great but there was still that little voice in the back of my head not wanting me to be happy anymore. Whenever I got like this Jack would be hit the hardest about it because he would always think it was something to do with him and 'not being good enough' which was complete bull, excuse my language. I was awoken by a sudden weighing down on my stomach, Jack. He'd been doing this every morning for a while now just to be the first thing I saw when I opened my eyes I think he hoped It'd make me feel better but it was this time every year I got like this. "Wake up douchee!" He whined before sighing and making an attempt to snuggle with me. I say attempt but in all honesty it was working whatever I was feeling about Tom had just completely gone. This was it, the thing to make me feel better after all was Jack but it was being close to him and embracing him like this, we hadn't done this in a long time but I was sure this would now become a regular thing if I had any say in it, which I do, of course. "Jay, as much as you stink of that god damn tuna, please do not move away from me." I managed a smile from the permanant  frown that had been sermented onto my face.

"You really think I wanna stay here with Mr.Sweaty and snotty?" He grimaced before turning it into a sweet smile that pracitcally melted my insides. "Of course you do, I'm irrisistable." I simply stated before managing to get myself onto my feet after removering myself from underneath Jack. "Where are you going? I thought you wanted to cuddle?" He groaned before following me, "I've been in bed for god knows how many days I do want to walk and seen as you've only just started paying me any attention today I don't see quite how it matters to you." I hadn't even meant to sound so spiteful towards him but I had and now he was just stood there with that same look he gave me when we used to argue. It'd been a while, clearly. "I'm so sorry that I can't be your every fucking need, your magesty. But I have things to do in my life aswell you know what I thought us being engaged to be married would mean we had longer together but you're being a real asshole you know? Stop snapping at me and being so grouchy. I get it, you've had shit in your life but guess who else has? ME. That's why we're meant to be here for eachother but has it ever crossed your mind I still need help everyday?" It was a lot to take in but he was right. He always fucking was wasn't he. I hated it. I always felt guilty after giving my own opinion but he was right. I slowly nodded and walked back to the living room admitting defeat. It was a great day outside,  truly it was but look what I had done to it.

Jack's POV

All I ever wanted to do was make Alex happy and lately I couldn't. I know, I know, every time of the year he gets like this because of Tom and he's still grieving I mean I would be too to be honest. But I hate it, I feel like if I touch him he's gonna break or if I say one wrong word he'll snap and that's not healthy for a relationship. After I practically bit his head off without meaning to I decided that sitting on opposite sides of the house not speaking was not such a great idea and was not going to end well so I had to do something. Although Alex was older he didn't always have the most common sense out of us two and even he would agree to that one, if we were speaking.  It had been three hours and he was still sat there, emotionless watching the TV that hadn't even been turned out, blank screen, when I had one of the best ideas. "I'm gonna make you feel beautiful again." I said maybe a little too fast but he obliged because honestly I think he was just as fed up as me. We just get at eachother a lot but that's only because we care about one another and that was true for sure. He slopped up the stairs behind me as I grabbed our coats and shoes and sat down on the stairs attempting to help him. "I'm not a little kid," Alex complained "But if your gonna do my shoes, you have to do the bunny ears or I'll refuse to leave." There it was. The happy Alex, the adorable Alex that had such a child like sense of mind. "Awh does ickle Lexy like rabbits?" I teased gently being cautious of what I was saying. "Please kiss me." He splurred out, what? "Please Jack. I want you to." He looked as if he was about to break apart if I didn't so of course I did. I figured he just wanted a little peck but it grew deeper and became somewhat affectionate and hell, it still made my stomach whirl in every direction.

"Let's get going." I simply offered before our hands became perfectly intwined and slightly swinging as we walked on into town. "Where are we going then Mr. Barakat?" Alex cocked his head to the side before resting it on my shoulder and continuing to walk. "Well, Mr.Gaskarth, we are going shopping and then afterwards we're going to learn to dance, properly."Alex let out a load moam of disapproval before carrying on. We should really get out more but c'mon we be getting old now. Shopping wasn't too bad but of course Alex got at least a new wardrobe full whilst I got a few bits I'd needed since last shopping, which wasn't a lot seen as It was whilst Alex refused to leave his room. "Jaaaaack! Hurry up we'll be late!" Before I knew it I was being dragged into the ball room although Alex wasn't too pleased with my offer of this he got into it pretty darn quickly often using his concentrated face which evolved furrowing his eyebrows and sticking his tongue out at the centre. "Jay, there's people!" He flushed and ducked his head and the movements I had embraced upon him, "Dirty dancing?" I chuckled before releasing just how loud I was whilst Alex apologised to more than a few people. I stroked his now aligned stubble before taking his face into my hands and pressing a soft gentle kiss upon his lips,  it was innocent. I sighed whilst he began to play with my hair, the blonde was fading and that made me sad.

Hours flew by of learning new dances we'll of forgotten come morning. By now it was 7pm and we were both in the kitchen with Alex draped around me as if he were some kind of chimp or ape. "My Jack." He grumbled before a wild look crossed his now peachy skin and eyes once I had turned around I knew exactly what he meant I mean what man can go this long without..xbox? Alright alright I know,  sex. We stumbled around the house whilst our lips were still connected attempting to find somewhere until we reached the conservatory. His back pressed onto the cold leather sofa causing him to wince but soon he had forgotten all about that and was more interested in getting my pants off. Which of course he was successful at, "Je-sus J-Jay." His voice hitched a little I wasn't eveb sure how that had made him do that seen as he'd seen it plenty of times-Oh right. The fact I had pretty much made him bleed from being in the process of biting him. Before I could apologise Alex was undressing himself which also meant he would be touching himself shortly after and hey, that's my job for him. "Ready?" I leant over him and looked him in the eyes before receiving a reassuring smile. Moans and groans of my muffled name erupted from this throat before I'd even got down to starting, he was turned on by me ane that was a win win situation in itself. "So so perfect." I hummed into his hair and gently and by now he was working up a sweat.  He squealed high pitch enough to break the windows. Once I hadn't done as he had demand his hands moved themselves down in hopes of pleasuring himself but again I hit his hand away, impatient. I gently pulled out before pushing in again at a steady pace. I had to make sure this wasn't some casual fuck and with hopes Alex would call it making love again as he had in the past. "I love you." "Beautiful." "Perfect." ."All mine." "gorgeous." Were words I spilled into his ear as the night progressed with hopes he'd believe it. With him practically trying to become one person as he cuddled me I knew that whatever I'd done had worked. "I love you." He fluttered his dark, long eyelashes and looked up at me giving me that look.. "I love you too." And with that his face had lit up in the darkness,  I couldn't wait to be married now.

POTENTIAL DRAMA LLAMA IN THE NEXT CHAPTER. Sorry this took me like a thousand years I just wasn't sure where I planned on going with this yet but I think I have an idea. So vote and comment or  don't whatever floats your goat. Yes goat. ooh plus I just made my first cover for the book that has actual text on it oooh