Under a Paper Moon (Jalex)

Chapter 3

*Two weeks later*

Jack's POV

After fifteen minutes of walking through the whole school to find an empty classroom, Alex stopped and opened a door. He checked no one was coming about hundred times before crawling under the table and pulling me with him. "You know, I'm lanky and this is uncomfortable." I sighed jokingly before cramming myself under it to join Alex. "Basically I've never liked a girl in my whole life but I just know I don't like them and I don't want to be with one." He's coming out as gay. I knew it! "But - I don't know if I'm gay. Like there's this one guy and I think he's just amazing but he's completely out of my league. And -" I cut him off with a kiss. It was more of a peck but I couldn't stop myself. "So, are you gay?" I mumbled awkwardly. "I'm not going to know from one kiss am I?" He moaned, rubbing his eyes.

I pulled his hands away from his eyes, they were red enough. 'You know what? Fuck it.' I thought to myself as I went in for a long, lingering kiss. He didn't pull anyway at any point during it. Well he did say he wouldn't know after one kiss so what was the harm in another? The bell rang for everyone to go home, had we really been here for that long? I finally pulled away. "Make sure you tell that guy you like and let me know how it goes." I tumbled out from under the table and hurried home.

I felt bad for leaving Alex there by himself but I felt awkward and if we'd kissed for a second longer then he'd of known what I was thinking. The same thing I'd thought about ever since I laid eyes on his. His big brown dark chocolate eyes- Jack stop it. You're not helping yourself or anyone else for that matter. I scrambled to the kitchen to find food, right now I'd eat anything and everything to take my mind off of Alex. "Jack! Stop eating before our meal with the Gaskarth's!" She wined, putting it all in the cupboard. "WHAT?!" I spat the food everywhere. "I told you a few days ago that me and his mother thought it'd be a nice thing to do." She shoved me upstairs. I guess I'd have to find some 'appropriate' clothes for this shitty meal. The door bell buzzed twice, or not? I shooted downstairs without realising I hadn't grabbed my jeans. "Hello Mrs.Gaskarth!" I grinned, noticing Alex was staring at my legs. That's when I realised I forgot my jeans. "Jack!" My mum shrieked, taking Alex on his mom into the dining room. I wriggled into the pair of Jeans that had been screwed up in the corner of my room for weeks.

Mom portioned out the dishes of spaghetti and added the meatballs. We all took out seats and I'd been placed opposite Alex, thanks mom, thanks a lot. I lost my appetite as soon as I caught him smiling at me.

Alex's POV

Jack looked pretty hot even though he'd done nothing to his hair, it looked better like that. "Jack? Why aren't you eating? You love balls!" His mom exclaimed, Jack chocked and went bright red. I couldn't help but laugh at how indirect she was. "Alexander! You love them too." My mum nudged me in the ribs. I felt my cheeks burn slightly and I couldn't stop it from happening. Jack's eyes widened as he realised that I was actually gay. "Well Alex you're more than welcome to go and play video games or whatever you do up there almost every night." Jacks mum shouted as we left the room.

We both plopped down onto Jack's bed and just stared at the floor for a while before the door swung open. "Hands to yourself!" My mum giggled, clearly drunk. "What's that supposed to mean?" Jack asked, turning to face me. I took a deep breath before turning to face him too. "I have anxiety. I can't help but freak out sometimes and I don't know what to do with myself half the time. That's why I pulled you under that table because I was more scared than anything and well, anxious." I explained before Jack slowly nodded before talking over me. "So when you kissed me, that was just to calm yourself down or?" I looked at him completely gone out. "No you dumb ass! I wanted to kiss you anyway, I would of wanted to even if I didn't have anxiety." I saw his frown turn to a smirk.

"Could we just sit and talk for a while?" Jack whispered, I didn't know why on earth he was whispering but I guess it was helping me to relax. 'A while' went from a couple of minutes to the rest of the night and by then I think it was safe to say we knew everything about each other. Even though I never mentioned the fact I more than clearly had the hots for him and I was certain that he felt the same. All my life I'd felt like an outsider but around this guy I felt electric. That I could hit the lowest of lows and he'd still be there to offer me a hand, he was just a great gay. Guy, Alex, guy. Although we weren't the only non-straight guys in school sometimes it felt like it.

Jack stretched up and yawned "You can put Home Alone or something on if you like?" He mumbled. "What's 'Home Alone'?" I queried, watching time go by and taking into consideration that I could of been kissing Jack right now but no. I wasn't I'm such a fuck up. I could of had a normal life if Tom hadn't of gone but that was my fault too for the same reason, I was just a fuck up. I wasn't even listening to Jack but he probably thought the same, I wouldn't blame him. "Alex, are you crying?"