Winning Back Mrs. De Castro (MGDC: Book 2)

Chapter 17. Sweet Torment

|Glaiza|

After an hour and a few fairy tale stories, Caiden and Caedy both fell asleep. I kissed them goodnight and went straight to my bedroom, the one that Rhian and I used to occupy six years ago.

I hadn't used that room for ages ... six years to be specific. I just can't. There's so much memory in that bedroom, happy ones, with Rhian. And since she left that room was never the same again. I can't sleep in that room without having dreams of her, without thinking about her. It's my whole bedroom belongs to her.

So, to spare me from all the agony, I had it locked months after she left. I used one of the guest rooms whenever I visited my old man and had to stay overnight in the villa which was not very often.

And now, after six long years, I have it reopened. The maids cleaned it up and voila, it was as if six years hadn't past. It's still our old bedroom who witnessed all our joys and pains as a married couple.

Maingat kong isinara ang pintuan na kwarto ng kambal. I passed through the hallway and with just a few steps I was already infront of my and Rhian's very own bedroom.

I raised my hand and hold the knob. Pero sa halip na pihitin ito upang mabuksan ang pinto ay nagdalawang-isip ako. I don't know why but I got cold feet at the very last moment.

This will be the first time that I get to share one room with Rhian after six years and it's ... it's ... terrifying and exciting and heart-stopping and ...

God, I'm such in a lost for words!

I wanted her and I missed her and it's been ages but I'm afraid that if we get intimate again, I might hurt her. Just like how I did back in the yacht. That incident almost ripped me apart and I would die asking for her forgiveness had she not forgave me that day. I'm a complete asshole ... a predator and I looked at her as my prey.

That one fatal incident made me resist her during my stay in her place in Cornwall. As much as possible I maintain my distance with her. We never even shared a room. I stayed in the living room or sometimes with the our kids bedroom but never with her. I tried to resist my urges to touch her everytime I comfort her not because I don't want to but because I didn't trust my self. I wanted to be gentle with her because that's what she deserves ... in her own perfect time.

I made a promise to myself that the next time that I will possessed her again, it will be more than just physical contact, more than just satisfying our sexual needs and more than just giving in to our heated body.

It is our soul who will unite this time. A love that consumes and a heart that beat as one.

Next time will be perfect. With candles, flowers, romantic ambiance. Maybe in the comfort of an expensive hotel room in Bali or in the worlds famous glass igloo in Norway or in a lavished house in Greece. I can even buy an island in the Pacific and name it after her and that island will be our hidden sanctuary. That would be perfect. Somewhere far and romantic where she can enjoy every bit of our union.

So, relax Glaiza. Patience is a virtue. Always remember that now is not the right time ... sooo not perfect. And she deserves perfection after everything that she went through with you. Get hold of yourself! You can do these!