My Journal

December 17th 2016

So I was babysitting from 5pm yesterday to 8am today.

15 fucking hours!

I didn't get any sleep.

At least I get paid though, I really need to buy new clothes.

Anyway. Once I got home, I just laid around, I was exhausted. I worked out a bit. That was fun.

I found out my ancestors were the first people who lived in Iceland. :3 so that was really cool.

After drinking too much water and completely forgetting that I needed salt. Oops.

I fell asleep at 11:30 and slept till 4pm and I still need more sleep. I'm too tired for life.

Both my dad and my little brother are sick so that's fucking great. Ughhh ;-;

I found out not too long ago that my dad has an aneurism in this heart. It's not big enough to break. However they want to do a CAT scan to see it better...

~Little Magic history about me here~

Since I come from a line of psychics and natural witches, some of those abilities have been passed down to me. I'm greatful for the gift but I when I have a vision of something I can't control... I just want to cry. Sucks ass that I've been called mentally insane for something I was born with. I'm both Psychic and a Psychic medium.

Looking into the future isn't all happy and all since most of my visions involve death... which is why sometimes I get so shaken I'll have a panic attack. Yay....

Anyway back on topic to my dad.

A few days after I found out my dad has an aneurism. I got the feeling that he probably wouldn't be okay. And that if anything is going to kill him, it's going to be this. Then this evening I had a vision of it.... jolly ain't it? I hope to god it doesn't come true like my last vision did.

Long story short I had a vision of a man being taken to hospital after a car accident and dying shortly after and that It was meant to be a murder. Seems far fetched huh? Well three weeks later I checked the news page in my town to see it actually happened... but the only person who believed me was my mom. Everyone else thinks I'm insane. So I don't talk about my abilities often concerning I don't want to be called mentally unstable. I only talk about them when I feel like I need to.

As for being a Psychic medium. I don't mind it actually. But I go through a lot of physical pain if I allow someone dead to show me how they died. I remember I went to this haunted movie theatre for a film shoot in July. Anyway I was with my mom and all of a sudden I feel this presence. And a spot beside me got colder. I felt around and that spot was colder compared to everywhere else. I was completely defenceless and this spirit showed me what it was like before they died. And it was so painful... anyway everyone probably thinks I'm crazy now so I'll stop talking about that...

I worked out more and just hung around. Still quite worried about my dad.. I hope he's going to be okay, although it feels like things won't be okay for a while...

I watched paranormal shows with my mum, stuff I've been watching since I was five, horror movies really entertain me, I can't help but laugh at how in realistic some of the makeup is.

I re-watched this anime called Noragami and oh my gosh I love it soooooo much!!! It's adorable and everyone needs to watch it I am in loveeeeee!!!!

I finished writing the letters. Since my mom has told me a lot about her oldest brother that is positive I wrote two pages for his letter. Since all I've heard of her other brother is that he's an asshole... I just introduced myself so his letter is only one page.

I've been looking through Pinterest and Etsy and I love them so much!! I'd rather delete my Facebook than delete my Pinterest and Etsy!! I love looking at room decor or fun fandom things you can make. Although Facebook is something I actually need because that's how I get work... so... 😅