Tragic Love (an Ashton Irwin fanfic)

Chapter 12: Starting Over

Brayden's POV:

I woke up tired and confused in Ashton's arms. I turned around to see him looking back at me with very dry, tired looking eyes. He had red cheeks and I could tell he'd been crying. And I remembered what happened last night. I did the most stupid thing possible. I almost gave up my life and possibly, ruined someone else's.

"Hey," I said to him slowly, not quite sure if what his reaction would be.

He didn't say a word. He just sat there staring at me.

"I'm so sorry Ashton. I should've never done that," I told him with a shaky voice and tears brimming in my eyes.

He engulfed me in a hug and kissed my cheek. "Don't apologize. It's my fault. If I would've never left you, none if this would have happened. But you do know that the only reason I did was to protect you?" he said with caring eyes.

"Yes, but I know I won't be safe without you. I can't. Either I will be bullied or beat up or I will go back to my depression stage. I don't know what I would do without you. You're my everything. You're the only thing I have. I couldn't live without you," I replied. I didn't even notice that some tears were lightly streaming down my face.

"I couldn't live without you either," he said wiping away my tears. "I don't have much either." I looked at him with a curious expression, telling him to go on. "See, I didn't grow up in a very good home. Everything was wrong with my family. My dad did drugs and was caught and arrested for it one day. It wasn't good growing up without a dad, and it was even worse since I practically didn't have a mom either. Once my dad was locked up, my mom started drinking, a lot. She was always lying around the house with a hangover. Some days when it was really bad, she would beat me. I went through that for ten years until the people from family services came to check things out. They found my mom drunk and passed out on the couch and me in the corner beaten and bruised. They took me away and placed me up for adoption, but nobody wanted me. I was never good enough. I went through a lot of struggles growing up alone. I hung out with some friends with bad influences on me in high school and I made some really stupid choices. I finally decided I would come to the university just to get away from that town, where all those bad memories were. And here I am now. Well, I'm not in the university now ,but yeah."

I just stared at him for a little bit longer, taking in what he was saying. I had no idea about any of this.

"I didn't know that. I just thought that you were some popular guy who everyone wanted at this school," I said joking a little.

"No nothing like it," he said with a little bit of laughter.

We sat there for a few minutes until we got a little uncomfortable. Ashton stood up and offered his hand to me, pulling me up with him. I noticed the cuts on my arms from a few days ago. They were still very sore.

"Well, what do we do today?" I asked.

"Well, you have classes today," he said cutely.

"Oh, yeah. About that, I don't want to keep going here. I don't really care about school, or an education, or anything right now really. I just want to be with you and try to fix my life."

"Are you sure?" he asked me worriedly. "You really want to drop out?"

"More than anything," I replied with a sigh.

"Ok then, we can take care of that. Then we can just go to my place and hang out," he said smiling. His phone buzzed in his pocket and he pulled it out quickly. "Oh," he said looking disappointed, "I have band practice later today," he said fake pouting.

"That's okay," I said obviously showing I was sad.

"Hey! How about you come with me? It'll be fun and you'll finally get to see me in action," he said excitedly with a big smile.

I gave him an odd look and after a few moments he figured out why.

"Oh God no. Not that. I meant playing in my band," he said giggling.

I couldn't help but laugh too. That was pretty funny how that happened.

"You know, those tattoos and piercings don't make you any tougher. You're just a big teddy bear," I said grinning.

"Yeah," he said sadly. He must have been distracted by something.

"Okay, well let's go!" I said trying to get his mind off of that.

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A/N: Okay so I'm a terrible writer. Please don't hate me. I'm sorry. Well I kinda have some ideas but they're going to have to happen later so in going to be doing filler chapters for a little while. I hope I'm not boring you to death with my suckish writing. Anyway thanks everyone who's reading. Love you lots!

AshtonIsMyAussie x

P.S. that chapter was kinda long if you read that on your phone HaHa. :p