Hold on till may | kellic

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Kellin's POV

I felt so bad. I didn't know that vic self harmed too.  I suppose at least now we understand each other and we can get through it together.

Lunch break had finished and Vic and I trudged along to registration, holding hands. We didn't have our next lesson together. I hated that, I feel so vulnerable without Vic there beside me.

On the way to reg people started staring at us holding hands and whispered things in each others ears. I looked at vic, who looked at me, smiling slightly. I could see him trying to ignore the whispers and stares. I squeezed his hand and he squeezed mine back. 

I opened the door into form and the whole class went silent. I could feel my face go red. A few people at the back started sniggering. I could hear Vic breathing very heavily. I looked at him to check he was okay. 'Sorry' he quickly said and ran out the classroom. I chased after him. He collapsed against the wall, he was struggling to breath. 'Vic!' I screamed. I didn't know what was happening 'Don't....Worry.' He said between gasps. ' Just.....A......Panic...Attack.' He said, struggling even more for air. 'Don't speak!' I said.  He sat on the floor and tried to calm himself down. Within a minute or so, he was back to normal breathing. He cleared his throat. ' Sorry,' He said quietly. 'I just panicked, I don't know why' He said, his eyes sparkling with the tears appearing in his eyes. 'It's okay' I said reassuringly. Vic smiled at me. And slowly he got up and walked back into the classroom. Everyone was giving us a very strange look. We ignored everyone and walked to our table. I went to sit down but my chair was taken from beneath me and I fell onto the floor, hitting my head on the side cabinet. The whole class laughed, apart from Vic who helped me up. 'Good one Ronnie!' Oli said, clapping.

 'Are you okay' Vic said, looking extremely worried. 'Yeah' I replied with a small smile, rubbing the back of my head. I held back tears and made sure no one was behind me this time when I sat down.

Vic's POV

I feel so bad for Kellin, he basically told me one of his biggest secrets, then we get to form and he  gets embarrassed in front of the whole class. I hope his heads okay, it looked like it hurt. Mrs Hart finally walked in, took the register and finished as soon as the bell went for 5th period.

Kellin and I separated for our different classes. I had Maths with Danny, Oli, and Ronnie. Great, this will be fun.

I sat right at the back, out of everyones way. Half way through the lesson I felt a piece of scrunched up paper hit my head. Everyone snickered. 'Open it!' Ronnie said with a smirk on his face. Not wanting to, but curious, I opened the scrunched up piece of paper. There was a picture of me and kellin on the edge of the bridge down the road from the school and the words 'Please, don't hesitate to jump' written over it in black marker. I ripped it up and chucked it in the bin. I returned to my seat to see written on the front of my maths book 'aww you too scared?' in the same marker. I was so close to crying, but I didn't want to give them the satisfaction. So I pulled my bangs over one eye and carried on working. 

Finally, the bell rang. Kellin was coming round my house after school so I couldn't wait. I grabbed my folder and book in my arms and flung my bag over my shoulders. I quickly walked out of the classroom, but as I did, I felt a foot trip me up, making me as well as my books, folder and everything in my folder fly through the air and land on the floor with a massive thump.

I looked up and saw Danny standing there with a smirk on his face. It then turned into a disgusted look. He kicked me in the ribs. 'One,' He said kicking me once 'for being gay' He finished. 'Two,' He said kicking me a second time ' for being a fag' He continued, 'And three' he laughed, kicking me in the same place for the third time 'For not doing what I said, and not jumping off that bridge.' He pointed out the window to the Bridge.

He walked off, everyone patted him on the back, he left me, useless, on the floor. I tried to get up but a sharp pain spread through my body making me whimper. I felt tears appear in my eyes, I let them roll down my cheek.

I heard a yell, it was the voice of my boyfriend. 'No!' I heard him yell again. I saw him bend over me. 'Wha-what happened?' He cried. 'Danny' I said, my voice hoarse. Concern spread across his face. 'Can you get up?' He said. 'Not really.' I replied, pain shooting through my ribs. I felt a warm hand grip under my neck and another one just under my thigh. 'I'm sorry if this is hurting you,' He started, 'But we need you home some time this week.' He said jokingly but he didn't have a smile on his face. He seemed worried. He picked me up in his arms. As painful as it was, it was cute how concerned Kellin was.

He carried me all the way home. The door was unlocked so I told him to let himself in. He placed me as carefully as possible on the sofa. 'Thanks' I said to him, with a smile. He smiled back. 'Crap! My folder' I yelled. 'I sorted that.' Kellin said to me, holding my folder up. I don't know how he managed to carry me and my folder home but I couldn't be bothered to question him. 'Thanks.' I repeated. He pulled out a blanket and put it over my aching body. He laid down next to me and we watched the Nightmare before Christmas. 

'I think I should stay over,' He said after the film finished ' Just to make sure your okay.' He finished. A smile grew on my face. 'Yeah sure, mom's away right now' I said with a smirk. I wasn't ready for anything big yet, but I was bursting with excitement. He winked at me. 'What about your mom?' I asked him. 'Meh, she won't care. She probably won't even realise i'm gone.' He said sadly but with a smile still on his face.

I got up slowly, My ribs seemed slightly better. 'You need help?' Kellin asked me anxiously. 'No, thanks.' I breathed in slowly. 'AH!' I screamed and collapsed on the ground.  'Omg!' Kells screamed pulling me back up. 'It's okay, It just hurt coz I breathed in too much' I reassured him. He nodded slowly and placed me back on the sofa. I felt like a useless kid. 'Try and get to sleep, i'll be here when you wake up.' He said to me with a warm smile. He laid down next to me and wrapped his arms around my stomach, being careful to avoid my ribs.

I fell asleep quickly in the warmth of Kellin, knowing he'd still be there when I woke up.

Kellin's POV

I care about Vic so much, and to see him laying next to me, looking so helpless, killed me. I started to cry. I didn't make any noise though, I didn't want to wake him.

Vic slowly opened his eyes. He lifted his head up. He turned round to face me. He smiled and puckered his lips. I leant in and kissed him quickly. He smiled and tried to stand up. 'Careful!' I said, worried the same thing would happen. He carefully breathed in and out. And he started to laugh. 'It's okay now!' he said happily. 'Is it!?' I asked surprised. He walked round the living room  and sat down again. 'Yep.' He said with a massive smile. It was a miracle. 'Must have been your warm hands wrapped round me.' He laughed.

'What's the time?' Vic asked me. I glanced at my watch that read: 22.30. 'Half ten.' I said looking at him. Surprise smothered his face. 'I've been asleep for 5 hours!' He yelled. 'And you stayed next to me for the whole time?' He asked. 'Yep.' I replied with a smile. Tears ran down his face. He ran up to me and swung his hands round my neck. 'I don't deserve you.' He whispered in my ear. 'Vic,' I said 'You deserve to be loved by everyone.' I smiled looking deep into his eyes. He smile back. 'I love you so much, Kells' he whispered. 'I love you too' I smiled.

He leant in and  and pressed his lips to mine. They moved together perfectly in unison. I forgot the softness of his lips. He slammed me against the wall and pressed harder. He wrapped his arms around my neck and jumped up to wrap his legs round my stomach. We kissed for what seemed like centuries, only stopping for air. He shoved me onto the sofa and ripped his shirt off, showing over a dozen bruises around his ribs. We both looked shocked but this moment was too special to ruin. I did the same and we snuggled under the blankets, still kissing. I felt him start to nibble my lip and I wrapped my leg over his body. I glanced down at his stomach. 'Pretty decent' I thought to myself. I smiled and pulled back. 'Sorry,' Vic said, worried.  'Did I do anything wrong?' He said anxiously. 'No,' I laughed, 'couldn't have been better, in fact' I smiled at him, he smiled back. 

We slowly drifted to sleep in the warm company of each other.