// I wrote this last night before I found out about Camila and now I'm fucking broken. //
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Christmas is always that time of year that causes unnecessary anxiety for you, due to the fact that it calls for the most extreme measures. It is the one time of the year you are expected to go out and select gifts for the family members you hardly ever talk to, but are still expected to show gratitude towards.
Adding to that, you do not know these families members well enough to pick out the perfect gift, leading you to be very anxious about their reactions. You fear negative ones for the most part because no matter how much you convince yourself they will love it, there is always that lingering thought in the back of your mind, where you know they constantly bash your gift without your knowledge.
Luckily, you got out of that this year due to the fact you got to experience a whole new level of Christmas while being on tour with your girlfriend.
Two weeks ago, the Fifth Harmony girl's were staying in Paris, France, where they had performed their final show before being dismissed to go home for two weeks. And that is just what four out of five did. They were overjoyed at the sudden notion of their management actually allowing them to spend such an important holiday with their families.
However, you and Lauren seized the opportunity to spend Christmas in the most romantic city in the world, just the two of you.
With some persuasion and constant begging, both pairs of your parents had finally given in to your request to stay and the two of you were over the moon.
So far, it has been four blissful days of mindless love making and passionate walks through the streets, all the while you two make memories for you to cherish forever. Countless mornings of waking up in the satin sheets, turning over to see her creamy, bare skin peeking through some areas, prompting you to want to immediately lean over and kiss them sweetly. She would laugh that bubbly laugh, full of joy and you swear you could listen to that laugh for hours on end. Not to mention, her striking green eyes staring at you intently as the sun beams down on her figure, giving her the goddess appeal she deserves lit a fire in your chest.
Spending these moments with her has assured you that you want this girl in your arms forever. And you are sure that you will have her because you want to be with Lauren for as long as she will allow you to. You intend to find out if you are on the same page while doing the unthinkable. You only hope she has thought about it at least once before.
Now, you lay stretched out on the hotel bed with your head rested against a pillow that has been laid against the back of the wooden headboard for your comfort. Your body is bare and completely rid of any clothes whatsoever, something your girlfriend played a major part in.
Keeping you warm is the body of the love of your life as her head rests on your chest and her arms wrap securely around your waist. She is pulling you towards her mindlessly in her sleep, using you as her pillow, the same as she has done one countless occasions. Your legs are tangled with hers, creating a sense of attachment to one another physically, just as your hearts have already done emotionally.
The peaceful sound of her breathing is one thing you could listen to forever and you love that she is so at ease in your arms, which are wrapped around her lovingly. With your more mobile hand, you draw patterns on her back comfortingly, never sticking to the same pattern purposely.
Looking over your shoulder, to the right, their is a sliding glass door, leading out onto a balcony that has the breathtaking view of the signature landmark of Paris, France.
