Inside My Head At 3am

Trapped [Poem]

My one savior in life
has become my worst enemy

I'm trapped in a place
where any choice is a bad one
where the consequences are only negative

They are taking away my magic pill
the one that saves me from the suffering

It takes away distractions
so I can get good grades
And it takes away my demons
so I'm happy with my weight

It makes me feel secure
so I'm not always shaky

It was the simple cure
the obvious path

But now it's hurting me

I've become addicted
but I need to stop

It's far too reliable
to go through the trouble of quitting

Now I don't have a choice
because lab results don't lie

They say it's slowly destroying me
they say that I'm going to die

They don't show the least bit of concern
when I say that I don't care
But truly,
laziness is the only reason I'm still here

I honestly don't care
about the side effects it will bring
because, to me, my magic pill
is worth more than life
and I cannot fathom
a life full of pain greater than a dull knife

Without my pill I will suffer
I'll be distracted
by my demons
that dance on the scale
my good grades will drop
and I'll be sure to fail

So now I'm trapped in a place
where any choice is a bad one
where the consequences are only negative

I'm being forced away from my magic pill
and towards impending doom

They are my worst enemy
My only savior, magic pill, is you