(A/N: This is part of an English assignment about the personal meaning of my name I just finished, and I really like this part)
Elizabeth has been a name adopted by female royalty for centuries. Listening to my full name said aloud transports me to a lavish sitting room with arsenic-laced walls and ivory cushions and dark wood floors. The smell of musty, unused rooms floods my senses, and the feeling of a temperature just cold enough to be uncomfortable runs over my skin.
My full name puts a certain tightness in my spine, as if I've been sitting with pristinely perfect posture for a preposterously long period of time. It feels too pretty. Too posh.
Liz.
Now that sounds better.
Liz sounds unique, but not unusual. Liz is the name of a girl who has a dream, an ambition, and isn't afraid to make it a reality.
When I hear "Liz," I am not taken to another place. I do not smell anything but the world around me. I do not feel anything on my skin besides the sweatshirt I always wear. Liz is comfortable, but never complacent.
Liz is anxious, self-critical, perfectionistic, inquisitive, ambitious, musical, logical, rational, and considerate to a fault, but Liz would be none of those things without me.
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Inside My Head At 3am
PuisiPoems about my personal experiences with coping with anxiety and depression, living with social anxiety, encounters with eating disorders, dealing with regret, and being a teenage girl with romantic feelings. ***CONTAINS TRIGGERS***