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:two weeks later:

Josh's POV

Why is the sky blue? Why is the ocean so vast and deep? Why was space endless? Was heaven and hell real? How were humans made?

Why was I here? Why was Simon here? Why did we end up like this? Why can't I remember?

Thoughts like these swarmed my mind, never ending as I lay on the flat bed, staring at the ceiling.

I was in solitary confinement.

I apparently got caught trying to swallow a spring, and I was screaming saying how much I hated it here, and how much I wanted to end my life.

I didn't remember any of it.

My eyes slowly flicker to the area of my scar, a slight pain emitting from the area. I slowly unzip my jumpsuit,  the zipper reaching the bottom with ease.

My fingers slowly pull the fabric back, revealing my white briefs, along with my tan middle, dancing with scars.

I grunt, shaking my head at my foolishness. Why was I so weak? Why was I so emotional? This wasn't me at all. I was strong and dominant, not broken and emotional.

"Come on Josh." I mutter, rubbing my eyes.

I stand from my spot on the ground, zipping up my jumpsuit and pacing the length of my cell, which only ended up being a few strides.

"Come on Josh.. You aren't weak, this isn't you." I continue to mutter, rubbing the soft cast around my head, feeling a sharp pain but dismissing it quickly.

"You aren't hurting. You aren't weak. You aren't forgetful. Get your shit together Josh." I grumble, my breathing picking up as I feel anger bubble in my stomach.

"Get your shit together Josh.. Get your fucking shit together now!" I scream, pulling the bandage off my head and throwing it to the ground.

"Get your fucking shit together!" I scream over and over again, kicking and punching the walls as I approach them, my knuckles progressively getting number and bloodier with each punch I throw.

"Fucking remember!" I scream, before smashing my foot into the wall, hearing a crunch and an unbearable pain spread like a shockwave through my body, my foot as the epicenter.

My body crumbles to the ground, a scream of anger and pain and disappointment filling the room.

Through blurry eyes I pull the sock off my foot, clench my jaw whilst letting out a scream as I observe the injury.

I definitely broke my foot, and the skin around it.

Bones stuck out, my toes were bent in every other way, and it was bleeding like crazy.

"Fuck!" I scream over and over until my throat is raw, and pain numbs my body, causing me to fall into a dark sleep.

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The sudden clicking of the lock shakes me awake. I sit up with a gasp, looking around the room. The room was large and pitch black, the thick air making it hard to breathe.

I stand slowly, blinking harshly to try to make sense of the room, but I couldn't see anything as hard as I try.

My eyes strained as I stood and spun in a full circle, extending my arms out wide. My hands touch nothing.