Bill's Apprentice//Male!Reader Insert

Chapter XX - Lost Warmth

//I pitied some of you so I'm here trying to get my gears running XD//

*~Dipper's Point of View~*

He felt like some sort of villain. After doing that...his nerves were shot. He can't stop hyperventilating. He kept clawing on his eyes, trying to keep the tears from running on his face. Thousands of voices filled his head.

"Idiot."

"Murderer."

"You should be ashamed of yourself."

"You're a coward. A little boy scared of his own shadow."

"What's happening to (M/n)?"

"Please...stop...! I know I'm an idiot but I'm not a murderer! I-I didn't know what came over me-"

"Dipper?" Dipper's head shot up, facing his twin sister, who's expression was very worried. She took some steps forward and kneeled down to the Dipper's level. The brunette backed away a bit.

"Dipper, is there something wrong? You can tell me." Mabel said, her voice trying not to break down. Dipper shook his head and buried his head in his knees. He didn't want to worry Mabel even more than she is right now. He didn't want to involve her in this.

Mabel was having none of it. She gripped on her brother's shoulders, her face stern. "Dipper, obviously something is wrong. You're in the corner of the room, crying, and talking to yourself. Please. Tell me what's wrong." She urged him.

"No, Mabel! Look, this...this is really complicated! There's something with (M/n) and-"

"Wait, wait! What's wrong with (M/n)?"

"T-There's nothing wrong with him! I-I just d-did something...a-and I really want to apologize but I just...I just..." Dipper broke down again, and Mabel just stared at him. Suddenly, she wrapped her arms around her brother and rubbed circles on his back.

"What exactly did you do?" Mabel asked, keeping her voice steady. Dipper didn't answer right away. He contemplated on how he was overcome with anger and he just regretted what he did to poor (M/n). He should be mad at himself right now, not (M/n).

"I...I c-choked him." Dipper stated.

Mabel's eyes widened in surprised as her grip on Dipper tightened. "Why would you do that?" She asked again.

"I...really don't know! When I found out he was working with Bill, I just..."

"Wait. He's working with Bill? That can't be possible!"

"It is, Mabel. I just said it. Apparently, I was just too stupid to see it because I was willing to do anything to get his heart, but n-no! I found out he was already blinded by Bill's maniacal persuasion and now...I don't know. Once I saw that terrified look in his eyes, it wasn't the eyes of someone who'd work with Bill to destroy the universe. He was really..." Dipper trailed off.

He guessed Mabel was having mixed emotions. He could tell because of their some sort of sibling connection. The room felt cold. The faded light from the moon seeped in the window. Mabel let go and gripped his shoulders again.

"Apologize to (M/n). Maybe he'll understand why you did it." She said. Instead of him speaking, his mind did.

"No, Mabel. What if it's too late? What if he never forgives me? After what I did, I'm sure of that! It's too hard and I'm worried I'll just do something again!"

A hand slapped his face. Hard. It stung and it hurt. Mabel looked at him angrily.

"(M/n) will forgive you! Even if he doesn't like you in a romantic way, he'll always love you in a platonic way. He's not an idiot, Dipper. He'd know you'd feel guilty after you did something like that to him. He'll even think you're a maniac for doing it! But eventually, he'll forgive you because you're his friend! Don't be a coward, Dipper. Apologize till you can. Or else, it might be too late till (M/n) thinks that you hate him now."