For Life - EXO x YOU

XXI - Perfectly Timed

Pattrice x Sehun

It's been a while since I last met you. I saw you today, wearing that beautiful smile of yours. I used to cause that smile. The smile that can stop my world, the smile that makes me feel like I'm in cloud nine. How I wish I'm still the reason behind those smiles. If only I made it in time back then. Maybe, just maybe, we can still be together and I can still be your man.

I can't bear to see you happy with him. I want to talk to you but I just can't. It's too painful to see my girl, happy without me being the reason of it. You laughed your heart out, as he tell stories about his sister's ex-boyfriend. I should've been the one to tell you funny stories, if only I made it in time.

The pain is too unbearable, I focused on your lips, those light-red lips I used to kiss passionately. Just by looking at them gives me sudden urge to kiss them again, to make you mine again. It's impossible, I can't even bring myself too close to you. You're a completely different person now. You used to wear jeans and blouses partnered with flat shoes, you hated staying in a crowded place for too long, but look at you right now. Wearing a faded sleeve less dress that ends below your knee and a pink stilettos, you and that guy beside you named Kyungsoo has been here for three hours already. You're really enjoying his company.

If only I can go back 5 years from now, if only I made it in time. It hurts to remember the last time we are so in love with each other. We had our dinner at our favorite place that night, I walked you home to ensure your safety and to enjoy a free time together. We talked about different stupid things on what happened in the past week. We laughed and laughed until we reached the doorstep of your apartment. We bid goodbyes and kissed each other. You even told me to study for my upcoming exams and reminded me to take care and that you love me more than anything. It's cheesy, that's why I didn't said anything, I waved my hand and walked myself home.

When I got home, you beat me and messaged first. Asking if I'm already home, I replied, saying that I just got home. I went upstairs to do as what I was told. To study. I studied for two hours already, when I received a text from a friend inviting me to go out with them in a small party at their house. As a teenager, I am thirsty for parties and late night outs. I went to the party and partied hard. My friends had to take me home because I'm too drunk to go home myself.

Past midnight, my mother woke me up with a very cold water. She told me that I should hurry and go to a hospital near our place now. It's confusing on why am I going to a hospital when we don't have a patient there? I was about to ask her why when she shouted right on my face that it's you. I never gave her a chance to finish what she has to say and ran like hell was after me.

On the way to the hospital, events of what happened in the party got to me, I remembered receiving a message from you saying that there's a strange man circling your apartment. I didn't had the chance to send a reply because the school's slut pulled me in a kiss that I soon broke off. Your parents met me at the hospital's entrance, I asked them what happened and what about you right away. They said that they know nothing too, that I better check my phone to see if she messaged me beforehand.

As I turned on my phone, messages kept on coming, messages from you. I opened each one of them and found out that, there's indeed a man outside your apartment that you can't call the police because the man might hear you and he might force himself in. Tears started to fill my eyes when I read your last message, it says "He's inside now. If you're reading this, please don't cry there aren't your fault. Don't ever blame yourself Sehun. Always remember that I love you—

"Can I sit with you?" I suddenly got back to reality when this girl asked me if I can share a table with her. I nodded and signaled her to sit infront of me. She's a student from my university base on her ID, her name is Pattrice. I stared at her weird style of eating. She ordered large fries, one-piece chicken with rice and a coke float. Her rice is full of gravy and her fries are standing tall on the ice cream of her float. It made me smile, she used to eat like that.