What happened to my old perfect life?

Chapter 16

I couldn't sleep.

I have been awake since 1:07 and more than an hour and a half passed and I'm still here leaning on the bed trying to sleep but to my despair my mind isn't letting me.

The only thing that my mind is doing is reminding me of that scary nightmare that I had. I would have preferred if I had a nightmare about ghosts chasing me or burglars got in to my apartment and stole my things, but no my life is more complicated and apparently karma hates me!

"I'm going back to my family... back to my old friends and back to my old life. I miss them as hell. I'm sorry I can't live in this life anymore. This is how your life should be but not mine. I deserve to be with them, I owe them"  

That phrase continued to come in my mind on and on. I couldn't control it and neither stop it. All I could do was to distract my mind from it.

Silently I prayed to God to let me sleep or at least make my mind to think of something else.

I have been turning around all the time; from left to right and from leaning on my back to leaning on my chest but neither of these positions worked as the nightmare continued to flash in my mind. 

I got up quietly without making any noise as I didn't want to wake up Matt because if he'll wake up I will be asked tons of questions. I can't tell him about the nightmare because if I will do he'll think that I do not trust him.

I unlocked my phone and I began to play a game but after a few minutes I got bored. I started to play another game which was one of my favourites but with a few minutes I got bored playing it too. 

I tried to think of what I could do to distract my mind and at the same time the time would pass. I tried to remember what I did today which was reading that diary.

I unlocked my phone and I checked if I had any internet left on my mobile but as karma hates me I did not have any left. I crossed my fingers and I silently prayed to God that there would be an open Wifi in the area. I turned the Wifi on and it began to scan.

Scanning... Scanning...

Bingo! Open wifi available! 

I connected with it and I entered in the online diary site. I got in the page that I was reading before Matt had knocked on the door. 

I read: 

*Diary*

Without knowing what to say I stared at him and he continued talking "Probably know you're wondering if I'm really your brother and what I know. The truth is that I don't know if I'm your brother or not till now.  Your mother said that your father was married before and whether it s a coincidence or in that year that your father was married with his first wife I was born"

"Don't you have a certificate of birth? Maybe we'll know if you are really part of my family from your father signature"

"I don't have one" Robert answered me quietly.

"That's weird. I mean every person is supposed to have a birth certificate"

"I know but when I was born my mother escaped with me from the hospital and took me to the Fostering service"

"Why did she do that?"

"At the fostering they told me that she was seriously ill but I kind of that believe that... About my father I don't know anything. I never met  someone that knows about him" he explained to me slowly.

"I'm really sorry" I added.

"Don't be. Its my life. All I have to do is to get used to it"