Hidayah Dia

Part 4

"NO, Uncle John! You lied to me. You said ibu will wake up today."

Itu suara Aryan. Ya, Aryan. Aryan yang sedang menangis. Dan entah kenapa, aku terasa seperti baru terjaga daripada tidur yang sangat panjang. Terasa seperti akulah punca kekecewaan dan kesedihan Aryan. Tapi aku tak mampu. Tak mampu langsung untuk bergerak dan menarik Aryan ke dalam pelukanku. Mengucup dan menenangkannya seperti selalu.

"I'm sorry Aryan. I'm not sure too. Just like you. But I promise you, she will wake up. As for now, we should go back first. Ibu will be mad if she know that you broke your sleeping time."

Itu suara John. Dan aku sangat berharap agar John mampu menenangkan Aryan. John, tolonglah. Tenangkanlah kekasih saya.

"No, Uncle John. I don't want. I want to stay here with ibu. I want to sleep beside her."

Tangisan mengesaknya begitu menekan jiwaku. Sakitnya hati aku mendengar kesedihannya. Ya Allah, tenangkanlah jiwa kekasihku itu. Sungguh, aku amat menyayanginya.

"Aryan..."

Suara itu.

"Daddy..."

Daddy? Siapa yang Aryan panggil daddy?

"Come."

"Ibu is still sleeping. I miss her. Really, really miss her. She will not leave me, right? She will stay with me, right?"

"Yes, she will stay because to stay is the only choice she have. She's so strong. The strongest woman I've ever known after my very own mom. She'll be stronger if you're strong too." Lembutnya suara itu memujuk. Suara mereka... Suara mereka mungkin sama. Tetapi suara lelaki ini jauh lebih lembut dan menenangkan.

"If she leaves me, who will take care of me, daddy? She's the only one I have. She's the only one who love me."

"I will. I'm your daddy, remember? No matter what happens, I will take care of you like how she did."

"But, you're not even ibu's husband. You're not really my daddy. I don't even know who my daddy is." Perlahan sekali bicara itu ditutur Aryan. Ya Allah, sedihnya aku dengar.

"What if I said that I am ibu's husband?"

"I would be the happiest person alive then."

"So, I am. I am ibu's husband. And no matter what the condition is, I will always take a good care of you. I love you as much as ibu loves you.And I promise you, that things will never change. Ibu will wake up. And she will hug you like she always did."

"I love you, daddy." Itu suara kecil Aryan. Sama nadanya ketika dia menyatakan bahawa dia menyayangiku.

"I love you, ibu. Good night." Ucapan itu untukku. Tetapi aku tidak mampu membalas, tidak mampu meraihnya bahkan tidak mampu memeluknya. Sedihnya aku kerana membiarkan Aryan bersedih.

"Thanks for taking care of Aryan for these few days, Syamil."

"No biggie, Ihsan. He's my son too." Suara John. Jadi, benarlah, suara yang bernada lembut tadi milik Ihsan. Suara yang begitu persis dengan suara Zachary. Namun suara Ihsan jauh lebih lembut nada bicaranya.

"Is it true about what you told Aryan just now?" John tanya soalan kepada Ihsan. Aku tak pasti soalan itu merujuk kepada pernyataan yang mana.