Mika and Emily

This I Promise You

Emily’s POV

 Two hours. Then I’ll be seventeen. Just two more hours. Texting Jessie. Eating goldfish. Yep it’s been a pretty boring evening. I’m waiting for Mika to call. I pull out my laptop and catch up on Pretty Little Liars. Twenty minutes I feel my phone buzz under my leg. It’s Mika. He texted: I can’t wait to see you finally. I’ll be there at eight. Happy birthday Emily.  I smile and texted: Thanks I love you.

I looked at the clock: 1:01 am. I suddenly realized that he could have meant eight in the morning. I called him.

Mika: Hi Emily

Me: Will I see you at 8 in the morning?

Mika: Of course. I want to spend the whole day with you before I.. um

Me: Mika? Before you what?

Mika: Um I really can’t say it right now um… I’ll… see you later, love!” click.

I had a weird feeling in my stomach. I squeezed myself into a hug. I think I know what he was about to say. I pull my legs out and stand up. I already felt the pain coming again. I walked out of my room and across the hall to the bathroom. I took antidepressants and fell asleep.

The lights were flashing to the beat of the song. People were jumping all in unison, it seemed. I felt the beat of the drums in my veins. My heart beating faster and faster. He spun around and stood on his toes like MJ. He hit all the falsetto notes with execution.  All I wanted to do was run up onto the stage like no one was watching. I wanted to jump into his arms and hug him with I had. But I waited. I waited until the very last encore. The crowd cleared and I saw my true love standing there, looking perfect. Looking even better than I had remembered. He stood there; then he saw me. I smiled and started to walk towards him.  He held out his arms I was ready to leap into them. Then I saw a flash of long red hair. Another girl. She ran right past me like no one was watching. She jumped into his arms and hugged him with all she had. Their noses came close and soon enough they kissed. I felt my knees wobble. My heart shattered. I felt as if I were falling. The ground coming closer and closer. I hit the bottom. My mind flashed through every moment that occurred through my life. The pain disappeared; my heart was whole again. Everything was pure white. I was dead. I died with a terrible terrible thought in my head. Mika found another girl.

I sat straight up screaming. I was panting. What kind of a dream was that? I was shaking. It felt so real. I felt the thump of the loud music pumping through my veins. I swore I felt it. I got up and drove to Jessie’s place. I texted Mom and told her where I was. I knocked on Jessie’s door and she opened it with sleepy eyes and top knot in her hair. Those pretty blue eyes widened when she saw me standing there. Pulling me inside, Jessie sat us down in her bed.

“Alright. Tell me.” she said fully awake now. I explained everything. From the dream to calling Mika. I told her my fear.

“Emily! If you are that afraid of him forgetting about you on tour, then tell him.”

“No! I can’t do that! He’ll think that I’m doubting his honesty.”

“Well that’s exactly what you’re doing… Just at least tell him once. Don’t bring it up over and over again though. That’s what I’m for. Let him know what you’re feeling and he’ll understand.”

“Promise?”

“Promise.”

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Hours seemed to fly by. Jessie let me borrow her best clothes for the date. I hadn’t seen Mika for two days. Whatever he was planning for today must’ve taken him a lot of effort. 7:30. I got dressed after a hot shower. I wore a sheer black top with a red camisole underneath and a white maxi skirt. Jessie styled my shoulder-length brown hair with a waver. I did my makeup: Black eyeliner, mascara, powder and red lips. Simple. I left for my house soon after and found Mika and a new car in the driveway. He leaned his perfect body against the car with a rose in his hand. He smiled as I drove up. He was so perfect. How did he do it? I walked to him and he wrapped me a warm hug. I inhaled the wonderful scent. It was perfect. I looked in his eyes and he looked in mine.