Mika and Emily

Baby Be With Me So Happily

Emily’s POV

Three days.

It’s been hard.

Life without Mika really sucks.

I’ve ditched the past three days.

It’s morning. I should get up. Parents have left for work. Jessie’s at university. I’m lying in bed staring at the ceiling. I finally get my butt out of bed and I get ready with a heavy heart. I hate depression. I wear a tight black sweater and a light pink pair of skinny jeans. I reach for my perfume and think ‘If Mika had a perfume I would buy twenty bottles so I would never run out.’ Then of course my mind trails off to Mika. I haven’t listened to his music. It reminds me of his voice. I think my parents know how I’m feeling. Dad has told me to grow up. He tries lecturing me I only shut my door in his face. When I lean against I can hear Mum telling him to take it easy on me.

Walking into school with a billion eyes balls staring at me is horrid. Everyone blinks at the same time. I slide into second period late while the class discussion becomes hushed whispers. Everyone looks at me. What am I to them? Mallory shouldn’t come back. She should go to live in another country. Far far away. The teacher walks the rows of desks and lectures. I pretend to take notes. I am doodling a rainbow. I add a girl who looks like me sliding down the rainbow. I hear the teacher’s voice get louder. It’s distracting. I give my drawing details gently adding little sweeps of my pencil. His voice gets louder. Soon I realize I’m not answering my teacher. I look up at an angry Mr. Slater. He slams my desk with his clipboard and tells me to sit in the very front of the room. I feel every stare as I move my things and myself to the desk he pointed to. School sucks.

Mr. Slater supposedly spoke with the guidance counselor. I’ve earned myself a trip to her office. I walk in the office and a huge whiff of vanilla smacks me in the face. It almost hurts. She sits at her desk typing. Her long black is draped over her left shoulder. Her glasses slid down her pretty nose. She hears me shuffle across the floor.

“Hi sweety. You’re Emily yes?” I nod. She stands up to shake my hand. She has a tight grip. She tells me to sit down so we can ‘become friends’

“I’m Michelle Carter. Please, just call me Michelle. I promise you, we will be good friends. I know what you’re thinking.” she leans back and kicks her feet up on her desk and smacks her fake gum in her mouth. “OMG, just make this quick, and no I will not be friends with the school’s kooky guidance counselor.  I don’t even know why I’m here. I could be at home locked in my room with nobody. That’s how I like it.” I fake a smile. She laughs, “Okay so tell me what’s the best thing in the world?” What? Isn’t her first question supposed to be ‘What’s on your mind?’  or ‘What’s bothering you so much that you’re skipping school?’

“Mika.” I answered. She nods. She opens her drawer and pulls out a rolled up poster. As she unrolls it I feel the pain creep back in my heart. It’s Mika. A poster of Mika rolled up in my guidance counselor, Ms. Carter uh excuse me, Michelle’s, drawer. I almost cry.

“Do you know him?” she asks slowly.

“Yeah.” She then pulls up a Tumblr page on her phone and searches the hashtag ‘emilypenniman’ and what I saw was amazing. Tons and tons of fan pictures. Everyone had something nice to say. She did the same for Instagram. I saw fan accounts dedicated to Emily Penniman.

EmilyPennimanSupporters

EmilyPenniman

EmilyandMika

LuckyMissEmilyPenniman

MissEmilyPenniman

Epenniman

It was amazing.I felt so loved. I smiled, for real this time.

“Now, the students have definitely seen the magazines with you on them. I’ve told everyone not to make a huge deal out of it. I understand that you are dating him correct?” I nodded.

“He’s back on tour as of now, I know. I also think this may be the reason why you have been so depressed. Am I right to say that?” I nod slowly as the tears I’ve been holding back fall from my eyes. Michelle hands me a box of tissues. 

“Emily, I want you to understand what I am about to say. Listen with all your mind. I know maybe you’d like to zone out but put all your focus on my words right now. If you two love each other the distance will only make you love him more. Just don’t stop your life because he isn't within your reach. You have a life too. I’m sure Mika would want you to live happily even when he’s away.”

“Yeah. I know.” I said. I really did. I know I shouldn’t be obsessing the way that I am right now. But I really really love him.

“You can always always always talk to me if you need anything at all. That’s what they pay me for. Try not to ditch school anymore, kay Emily? Everythings gonna be alright. Trust me. I know it’s hard because he’s only just left you. But I guarantee that things are going to get easier.” I smiled. Michelle may be my savior.  I got up and left after hugging her and shaking her hand once more. I went home happier. I listened to Origin of Love and screamed every lyric. I was feeling a lot better.