don't go

10

I wanted to call Kaylen so much. At the same time I didn't want to call her. If I started dating Kaylen I would have to come out as lesbian  and I didn't know if I could do that. I may not of been close to my family but if I came out what would that do. When I checked my phone I had ten missed calls from Kaylen. I also had five texts from Kaylen.   I wasn't sure if I should call her. 

  Part of me just wanted to run to Kaylen and kiss her. The other part of me just wanted her to go away. I couldn't be gay I just couldn't. So I didn't text Kaylen . I didn't call her. But I couldn't not see her. I mean she was in my school. I felt sick at the idea of the seeing Kaylen.

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 By the time I did go to school I was terrified. I also know there was no way I could ever be Kaylen's girlfriend. I had looked up Kaylen on Facebook and had seen a beautiful of her last girlfriend. Her last girlfriend was a stunning skinny blond called Casey. Nobody would want me after they had a girl like Casey. 

 I tried to avoid Kaylen but of course I couldn't avoid her for long. When I saw Kaylen she was with a couple of other girls. Kaylen was smiling and happy and she looked delighted.

 The smile slid of Kaylen's face when she saw me.

"Hay Skylar" Kaylen yelled running over to me

 I wanted to run but I didn't run I felt frozen. "Yes" I crooked when Kaylen reached me

 Kaylen looked awkward "Well you know what happened at the party well I just wanted to say I'm really sorry the thing was I was just really drunk and I broke up with a girl recently so I was sad about that and like I only think you as a friend and can we be friends and do you want to hang out with me" Kaylen babbled.

 I felt like crying. I wished Kaylen said she did like me. But at least we could still be friends.

 "Oh sure sorry" I muttered trying not to cry "Friends of course" I said sadly

"Awesome do you want to hang out with me and the others" Kaylen asked me

 To be honest I just wanted to hang out with Kaylen alone. As long as Kaylen was involved I didn't care though. "Sure" I said

  Kaylen's friends actually all seemed okay. Kaylen was the best and worst thing's that had ever happened to me.