Chapter 11 The Needles
I had to do it. After crying and regretting for hours I knew what I had to do. The scars weren't enough. Never would be enough. It was time. I crawled under my bed and took my sewing kit. I had needles in there from when I was little. I had dreams of being a fashion designer, but I would never be good enough. I flipped off one of my posters and then propped my wrist up on a desk. I cursed under my breath, apoligizing to my mom and dad, then my brother, and Kaitlena, and Kip, just everyone. Especially G-Rose. She was always trying to be my friend, I was too much of a b*tch to accept that. I let out a groan and then punctured my skin with the needle, it hurting like hell, but hey that's where I was going. I was getting light headed by each needle. after about 3 I felt myself fall, and I smiled.
STILL CHAPTER 11, but in Axel's POV
I had to go get Deileigh for dinner, and the music was pounding. "D*mn." I whispered and pushed the door open seeing a sight I never wanted to see. "DEILEIGH!!!!!!" I screamed and jumped back, almost falling off the stairway. Men dont cry, I whispered to myself. I took out my cellphone and called 9-1-1 franticlly, then calling Georgia, and everyone. They took Deileigh away and put her in an ambulance. I watched as my mom looked at the scattered needles on the floor and then fell to them, taking the metal into her hands and sobbing. She layed there as dad rubbed her back trying to console her, but it didn't work. this was terrible to see my parents like they were, and I thought how I made my mom feel about Kaitlena. I had already filed for papers. Papers for adoption.
I was freaking 17! I couldn't raise a child, let alone two! Huh. But now I had Deileigh to worry about. Then I remembered soemthing.
Remembering when I was 12 and she was 13, and we were fighting and acting like fools. It got worse and she told me I didn't deserve to live, and I knew exactly what I said was wrong but I said it.
" Well you should of died before you were born because alchahol is your real dad! Mom was just a seed! You are just a night Gone wrong! Ya hear that Deileigh, WRONG! As in you are nothing but a disgrace and a memory for mom! maybe you dont deserve to live!"
This was my fault. I killed my sister. Damn. I ran down stairs and tripped on the last step. It made me feel like scum and I realized. I didn't deserve to live if I killed her. What if Kaitlena turned out like this? Kip? I have to be a parent now. D*mn the papers. As I went into the kitchen near the door I saw something through my tears.
A bloody needle.
