Idiotic Intimacy

fourteen

" oh really? she confessed to you ? is it the girl that day you say ? lmao she said new trainees having relationship is bad ? so means old trainees having relationship is good ? what the heck " i mutters .

" woah babe so savage . lol i know right " he said .

" what did you say after that ? " i asked .

" um i said that we are dating . im sorry i need to lie cause i dont like her she just to clingy- " i then put my finger on his lips point of shut up

( like you guys aint clingy )

but then i laughed like hell . he froze there confusingly . " why ? "

" good job ahhahah " i replied .

" im done hearing about her shits today , i need to go back traning! See ya " i said then leave the cafe .

idk what i feel but im statisfied .

these days i kept hearing that she likes johnny and she wanted to be with him but girl you're a trainee too .you cant date too .. everyone in this industry can't... even if you do you'll get yourself in trouble .

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months passed .

youngho sometimes keep visiting me while my training to give me meals while i actully cant eat them but i ended up eating anyways . He knew that i am on my diet but he didnt even care about it hmmph  .i hate him so much .

plus that crap keeps on disturbing me these days and saying to go away from his man aka johnny. Oh boi is this girl is damn desperate. she even called him daddy once . im like .. wyd girl .

but i see youngho is getting near to her too . its made me got a little jealous or something hmm idk . everytime i was about to enter the cafe i would ended up seeing that girl filtring with youngho at the counter . so i ended up going to my aunty office and say shits .

well , she undertand why i am like this because i like him but i just hate to admit it . i really hate it ..

my mood somehow keeps swinging around like , earlier i was happy but later then it turns out bad because of him . its hurt seeing this things .. this is really stupid for me to feel this ... why am i jealous too , i felt like im not desperate but ... sigh .

after i went to my aunty office i went back to my section which is together with the artist section . maybe one of the reason why they were jealoused of me is maybe i am in a higher level even when i am still new . well i dont know anything . my aunt who placed me here , they said that they want some quality training for me . um ?

ever since i am here i havent dare myself to step into the trainees section so i decided to go there alone today since i was bored  , i have no schedule so im hanging around this building.

when i was walking suddenly i stopped cause i saw a cockroach infront of me and it was on the wall but then someone behind me bumped me so hard until i stumble and fall . bish

" ah oh my god " i cursed internally as i instantly woke back up and not wanting the thing to be on me . when i looked at the person , i gave him a death glare . it turns out its doyoung and perhaps with chittaphon , that trainee which usually talked with youngho .... they are more like mates .

both of them froze there while staring at my disbelif annoyed angry face looking at them . " you– " i mouthed but then stop as i remember that cockroach.

i looked at my back and turns out the thing is already gone . shittt it was all their fault . i was about to kill it ........

I then looked back at them and shouted " YAHHHH !" that make them shocked and people at that hall looked at me .

I then looked then with my hair covering my face . " at least help me to pick up my things " i said then looked at my bags and things that was on the floor .

both of them instantly helped me , by reading their faces i could know that they are scardy cats . omg im so mean . sorry not sorry HAHAHA

" n-narrysa " they shutters .

" we're sorry it was an accident " doyoung exclaimed . " its fine " i replied with a sigh .

" by the way why are you here ? " he added . " yeah , arent you're at the other section ? " ten said . " we have another section ? " do young asked him back .

" yea the artist one " he said .

" ahh " do young mutteers .

" I'm bored " I said .

" but wouldn't your trainer will be mad ? " do young asked . I laughed

" I don't think she would be mad at me or she'll be at a bad state" I replied.

" yeah hahah i know right " ten suddenly said . my eyes then went widen on what he just said . I then pushed him to somewhere leaving do young .

" what ? " he asked me . " hey , did youngho tell you ?!" I asked him .

" well , look . it was an accident he - "

" I KNEW IT ! .. ughhhh I really hate that man ! " I said ran to the rooftop getting ready to jump from the rooftop . lmao just kidding BHAHAHA .

" since you already knew about it , don't dare saying this to others or ... you'll be death meat " i added . he gulped and nodded while showing that he was zipping his mouth .

i showed a thumbs up before leaving that both guy on that state . still dumbfounded bahha .

I seat at a chair placed there . and cried . I just hate it . I'm so stressed with this stupid things . my hormones aren't stable, thats why im suddenly emotional. i just suddenly felt hurt .

" I hate you youngho .." I said but then suddenly doyoung ... look , i didn't expect him to follow and showed up beside me though and that shocked me as hell .

" why ? Is it because you guys fought and he cheated with you ? " he suddenly asked . I gasped a little seeing his figure beside me .

" what ? fought ? cheated ? " I replied confusingly .

" um I heard that johnny and someone is dating right now ? or something . that girl ended her career  just because wanted to be with him . thats what i heard then suddenly I remember that you and johnny are dating so that's why I thought you guys fought" he said .

I looked at him sadly " we havent dated yet dyoung . we are just best friends . ugh people just thinks that we are dating but we are not ! " I replied emotionally.

" not even once ?" He asked . I nodded and sighed as i am already tired of thinking these things .

" but you like him don't you ? " he asked .

I looked down and stared at the floor while thinking . " yes "

" then why don't you just tell him ? " he said .

" look , doyoung . I don't understand why do everyone keep saying the same thing  to me .. do you guys ever think that it is easy for me to confess or tell him just like that ?! No ! okay , its damn hard mostly its your best friend and also because I'm not the type of person that give a confession easily . I am a girl and don't you think that boys are the one should confess first and not a person like me ? i am weak doyoung .. what if he would reject me ?! he's my only friend that i believe and love ... what should i do if he leaves me" I said while sobbing by myself .

" its okay for a girl to confess , believe me that he loves you ... i can see it by the way ge talks to you and be with you .... and i believe that you I you can do it naryssa . just believe in yourself" he simply said before giving me a backhug and then leave . " i need to go ... good luck " he whispers and left .maybe he's gone for training.

" but I don't think its a right time ." i mutters by myself and wiped those dirty water from my eyes .

" then when ? " my innerself talked to me .

tbc.

btw nct 127 is coming backkkkk im excitedddddd

(updt: 30/10/17 i wrote the whole book since last year till this year january, so please ignore the things i said that is out of date aldy )