Bodies Changed

I Can't Do It

6 months later
There I am at Bed, Bath and Beyond doing my wedding registry. As I'm walking I couldn't help but smile. I was happy to know that I will be spending the rest of my life with Graham. At first I was a bit hesitant on whether or not I should marry him but now I know for a fact that I do want to marry him. I honestly love him and he has been a great person so why wouldn't I want to spend the rest of my life with a person who treats me like a queen?

So there I am with the price gun and I bump into someone. I dropped the person's price gun along with mine. "Oh my gosh I'm such a klutz," I say and as I look up to hand the person the gun, I see these amazing blue eyes, it was Killian. "Hey Emma, long time no see," he says. I smile and my heart starts to beat super fast. "Hey," I say nervously. "What are you doing here?" He asks. He looks at my hand and sees my engagement ring, "you're engaged?" I nod.

"I'm engaged too," he says. It sort of hurt when he said that but I smiled. "That's great, I'm sure you and Milah will have a happy life," I say. I couldn't help it, I was jealous. I shouldn't be though, I am an engaged woman so I shouldn't feel this way. "How about we go and pick some more stuff out for our weddings?" I laugh and nod.

We continued to talk like we had just seen each other the day before. We get to bedding section and I see a curtain similar to the one I saw in Killian's room. "This is just like the ones you have in your home huh?" I say and then gasp. The only place where I saw that was in my dreams. Crap, I was done for, he's going to find out. That's when his eyes shot open. "You dreamt it too Emma?" I start to panic. "What are you talking about?" I say nervously.

He grabs me, "the last day of the event you dreamt that we were in each other's bodies didn't you Emma?" I wanted to say yes but I was scared. I stayed quiet. "Answer me Emma!" He screams. "Why does it matter if I dreamt it or not, it's not like what happened, happened for real?" I say.

"So you did dream it?" He says. I nod. "It was real Emma," he says. I shake my head, "how if we were asleep for all those months, did we actually live in each other's bodies?" He smiles and nods. I shake my head. "I seriously think it was a manifestation of the last person we saw before the explosion which was each other."

He shakes his head, "Lacy was right though." "No Killian none of that matters because well we are both engaged," I say. He smiles and leans closer to me, "so you do love me?" I panic, "no I don't, I love Graham and I'm going to marry him." When in reality I hate to admit I was in love with Killian but I never thought I was going to see him again so I was going to learn to not be in love with him.

"Don't you love Milah?" I say. He stays quiet and turns around. "I do but then I don't but Emma what we went through changed me, I mean I became a different man because of you, you made me want to have people around me and not be selfish as I usually am, that part of the dream or whatever it was, was true," he says and grabbed my hand.

I look up, "I think we are just confused with our feelings and affections." He looks at me in the eyes and smiles, "look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me." He's staring at me and my heart is beating like a million times per second. I close my eyes and walk away. "You think it's all true too, you're just scared Emma!" He screams out. I turned back and sighed. "It's not like we can just leave everything and go with what we dreamt Killian," I say.

He walks up to me, looks at me straight in the eyes, takes my price gun and his and lays in on the counter that was there. He looks at me in the eyes again and caresses my cheek, "what are you doing?" "This," he says and he kisses me. My eyes shot open when I felt his lips on mine. I wanted to back away but I couldn't, I didn't want to back away. Kissing him felt right, I felt so loved. I kissed him back and boy was I enjoying it.

He hugged me and I had my right arm around his neck while my left hand was grabbing on to the collar of his shirt. After minutes of kissing we let go, "so you still don't love me?" He asks while catching his breath. I smile, "I do love you but we can't be." "Don't tell me that what you feel with me you have with Graham?" He says. In my mind I'm like of course not I'm head over heels for you but I can't tell him that.

"That's none of your business Killian." He smiles, "I love you Emma and I'm willing to let Milah go and be with you." "No you can't she loves you and I know you love her; oh God don't make this any harder than what it already is," I say with tears in my eyes. He then hugs me," let's do this, we love each other and we deserve to be happy."

I hug him tighter as I bury my face in his chest, "I'm sorry but I can't," I say all muffled. I back away and he caresses my cheek while smiling. "Please Emma." He says while a tear falls down his cheek. I smile and caressed his hand that was caressing my cheek. I grabbed my price gun and sighed, "go be happy with Milah."

He looked so heart broken. "So when's the wedding?" I ask. "September 21," he says. I gasp because it's the same day as mine. "When's yours?" He asks. "The same day," I say. He gasps then nods.

"I love you," I say and he smiles, "I love you too." I start to cry. "I hope you have a happy life with Graham." I nod and I walk away as I touch my lips. I couldn't bare seeing him any longer. I made my way back home and I ran to my bed and started to cry. I wish I could be with Killian but I couldn't, I have to get married to Graham..