My guardian angel

💚chapter 29

"we're even"

Angel's POV

"umma.." I uttered looking for her. my tears rolling down my cheeks. I've been running around looking for her. but I can't seem to catch her. finally I stop beside a tree as I catch my breath. I bend and hold my knees for support, staring down at the ground. tears were making it blur that I grit my teeth and shut my eyes as I make those cry sounds.

I remember my mother. I remember I was half Korean. I remember what it feels like to be alive. and I'm dying to hug her again. All this time, I was dreaming of my mother and what she looks like. I kept imagining that someday when I finally move on to the heavens I'll watch her from above. but I didn't imagine this. that I'll see her again.

I wipe my tears and slowly rise. I look around in case she was near by. I continued to walk straight forward. don't mind going through the cold breeze winding against my face and body. I just want to hug her even if I can't.

the agony I'm feeling right now just took over me.  I stop and just look around. I can't do this anymore. I wipe my tears away and arrange my bangs. I inhale and let it go. I close my eyes and inhale once more and exhale them. I feel calmer now. but that feeling that I remember a few things now. I remember my mom, I remember I was half Korean but does that make my eyes... like Darren's?

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I've been walking all this time loss track of time and don't know where I'm going. ever since I remember my mother I'm trying to remember the others. if I had a brother or sister and my daddy if he's the reason why I'm half Korean.

I stop to look around. I'm on a familiar village. then my eyes landed at a black painted gate. it's Darren's.

I walk towards their gate and peek at their house. my eyes still puffing because of crying. I wonder if I had a complete family when I was alive. was my house full of lights? was the laughter being heard from the outside? or was it gloomy like the house I found? Without thinking twice I went in.

I was already at their living room when I remembered no one in here can see me. Darren must be up there in his room.

I went there but stop at the very door. I don't want to just go in without knocking. so I inhale and compose my self. wore a smile and knock. Darren opened it and he was surprise to see me. he let me in and told me to sat at his bed while he close the door.

"have you been crying?" he ask looking at me. I smiled and nod. as much as I want to deny it but I can't specially because it's Darren. I can't lie to him.

"but why?" he ask again. rubbing my back.

"I just miss someone that's all." I said and rub my nose cause I feel a sneeze coming.

"stop crying will you? it's okay I'm here." he said and wipe a tear that has fallen using his thumb and hug me as he smooth my back. I didn't notice that I was crying again. he keep saying ssshhh and rubbing my back in circles.

"whenever I'm here and my family's at Canada I can't help but miss them. it also makes me cry but I just think of them and I'll see them soon makes me feel excited and happy. so cheer up! you'll see them someday." he said and let go. and tap my shoulder.

I smiled and wipe my face. feeling a shame.

"so who's this person you're badly missing?" he ask.

"i don't really wanna talk about it right now. I'm sorry" I said.

"it's okay. I understand" he said and grab something from his study table. it was lemon drops. the least candy I wanna eat today.

"here have some." he said. but I decline. he open the wrapper and told me to open my mouth but again I refuse. he sigh and squeeze both of my cheeks using one hand making a little hole in my mouth and shove it inside. he smiled and took one also.

"this always makes me feel better." he said and just stare at me while playing with the candy inside his mouth. we were just staring at each other for I don't know how long. I just notice that even though Darren's have this Chinese eyes he still has a double eye lid.

"you remind me a lot of Julia." he spoke softly. his voice sound sad. he lay down and cover his eyes with his right arm.

"who's Julia?" I ask and lay down beside him. he remove his arms and stare at the ceiling.

"she's my friend back at Canada. she just left me without saying goodbye. I was so angry to know that she left for good. I mean she's my best friend she could have told me something! but suddenly mom compared you two and she was kinda right. Julia was a shy girl. she was also white and long black hair. but sadly I don't remember her face anymore" he said.

"maybe she has a reason why she didn't tell you she was leaving." I spoke. who ever this Julia is she better feel honored that a Darren Espanto still cares for her. wherever she is.

"what could that reason be? just to leave me?" he spoke suddenly sounding pissed.

"maybe she doesn't want you to get hurt? or there's a hundred reasons why she didn't tell you. I'm sure of it." I said. but on the second thought why am I defending this Julia?

then suddenly his phoned ringed and he got up to get it. he suddenly smiled and left the room. I stood up and tried prying.

"yes, blithe I won't forget it" then he laughed.
"oo na! bespren Kita eh.."
"cge na ibababa ko na." then he laughed again. but this time more like a giggle.
"sabing oo eh. cge na ibaba mo na." he said
"bye! muah!" he said and I heard footsteps so I ran immediately to his bed but stupid carpet I tripped. then a loud "thud" came. I grit my teeth and tried to get up but too late.

I heard the door open and the chuckling Espanto came and helped me get up his chuckle fade when he sees me lying stupidly at his carpet. he helped me at his bed and look at me face, shoulders, for short everywhere.

"what do you think your doing?" he said and look at me with a worried face. he was still checking me. when I didn't answer he made this tsk sound.

"you could have hurt your self!" he said. still got this half mad and half worried face on.

"who was that?" I ask to change the topic.

"who? on the phone? um, it's no one." he said and sigh when he saw I have no scratch at all. he sat next to me and brush off the dirt on my elbow.

"are you sure?" I ask again. why is he lying?

"yeah it was just one of the staff don't worry. why are you changing the topic? what were you doing that you tripped?" he ask. shoot.

"I was... dancing! I remembered a dance so I tried it and yeah my other feet was twisted and the other was on the wrong spot and accident happened. I tripped." I said trying not to feel guilty for lying. I couldn't just say I was listening to their conversation earlier with Andrea. I know her as Andrea but I also know her real name.

"next time be careful okay? you might scratch your self next time." he said and patting my head and smiled.

He lied
I lied
We're even.

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Julia? who's Julia? and why is Darren lying? hmm.🤔
can anyone guess who's Julia? I think you already have a clue. But I'll give you another clue. She is not what you think she is.😉 comment it down and I might just tell you who she really is.

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