I wake up to the smell of my mams cooking. The smell of breakfast swirls around the house, i am excited for a moment. Just a moment though. I sigh. I don't want to move out of bed, but it would only worry my mam. So I get up lazily. I go to the bathroom, and take a quick shower. I walk into my room with a fluffy white towel around me, and shove on some clothes. I leave my hair to dry and put on a brave face, not for me but for my mam. That's the least she deserves, I don't want her to worry about me, even though I know she will be anyway. I creep downstairs, and take a deep breath before facing my mam. Sure I love her to peices, but if she or anyone was to do anything to Miles, then I would still be angry because even if I deny it, i still love Miles. I take a seat at the kitchen table, when their is a huge nock at the door...
I shout to my mam that I will answer it. Who would be knocking at my door at this time on the morning? I shuffle to the door and open it, I'm shocked to see Matt looking like he has been in a massive fight. "Jesus Matt, I think you better come in". I get no reply, when Matt is in, he pushes me against the wall and kisses me. I manage to break away "What the FUCK Matt" I splutter. "I'm so-ssorry Allex, I just had to do that before you kill me" Matt whispers. I take him in all bloody and bruised up, then it clicks his desperate behaviour and the obvious state he's in. "Matt what have you done to Miles, because I swear to God I may be smaller than you but, if you've so much as touched a hair on his precious head, I will murder you right here right now" I shout in Matt's face. "Okay Al calm down I might of gone over to his place and smashed his head in, but that's the least he deserves. After hearing your voice yesterday on the phone, and how bad Miles has hurt you, I had to do it Alex; Miles has to learn a lesson" Matt says almost too calm for my liking. "Ooh Matt the fucking hero, I'm going to teach you a fucking lesson, as soon as I'm back from going to see Miles don't you worry about that" I shout and run upstairs.
I grab all of my stuff, most still packed in my suitcase. Then I practically run downstairs, shout to my mam I'm borrowing her car then start the journey to Miles' house. I probably get about 10 speeding tickets on the way, but I don't care. The ride is taking too long for my liking, I just want to see Miles. I turn on the radio in hope of a distraction, but I only hear shit music. The clock is ticking, and each second could count in this situation.
I finally arrive at my destination, and run all the way to the place that I had been running from. I push them memories out of the way for now, me and Miles can dicuss them later. For the present moment, I need to focus on Miles. I frantically knock on his door, and get no response. Thankfully, the door is open so I plunge in not prepared for the sight, I was about to see.
Trashed the flat, everything. Trashed. No sign of Miles, I hope to God that he took his self to the hospital. But that's obviously just wishful thinking. By the sounds of it Matt has left Miles in a state so terrible, that he can't even walk nevermind take himself to the hospital. I look in every room, and can't find Miles. I cry out his name in desperation. Fuck. Miles has a balcony...
I sprint over to the balcony, to see Miles perched over the edge. I say "Hey Miles, it's Alex please don't we can sort this out, i-i love you Miles please". Miles looks around and I can see the damage Matt has inflicted upon him, still I don't break eye contact or let it bother me, in case of upsetting Miles even more. "Why Alex? Why are you here? Why are you here, when I'm the one who caused all this? I don't deserve you Alex, I don't deserve your forgiveness after what I did" Miles cries tears running out them beautiful eyes, into his cuts on his face. "Aw love come down please your scaring me, please Miles I would die without you" I plead.
I was gonna do it, I really was. Then he showed up, with them doe eyes. And how can I ever say no to them doe eyes? I can't. I have myself safely back into Alex's arms, where I stay for a while. I break the hug and say "I'm so sorry Alex for everything, I really am". "I know you are love, let's get you inside and cleaned up now" Alex says.
I drag Kane to the bathroom, and sit him on the counter top. He's a mess. Blood runs from him, onto the tiles of his bathroom. I unbutton his shirt, to reveal that he has bruises running all over the course of his body. "Miles I think we should really get you to hospital, by the looks of this you could of broken something" I whisper and trace around all the bruises. Matt had really battered him, and it's all my fault. "No Alex I'm not going near anymore hospitals, please" Miles grunts. Shit I completely forgot about his stab wound, upon inspection it looks like that even Matt wasn't that cruel to make it any worse. Thank fuck. I walk over to the medicine cubboard, and take put various medication to treat Miles. I start with his face, after all the wounds are sorted; I notice that he will almost certainly have a black eye tomorrow. I then move onto his chest, where I again patch him up as best I can, making sure I'm carefully around his stab wound. I'm no doctor, but I've I'm usually the one to sort out the lads if they take a beating while on tour. When i was at school, my mam made me take a medical course, claiming that it could prove useful in the future. Well she was right. As their has been countless times, when either the lads had been in a scuffle; and didn't want to tell the medic that would come on tour with us, so had used me to help patch then up. Or I've even used the training on myself, to avoid the embarrassment of going to a doctor or hospital. Miles is occasionally flinching, but other than that he doesn't move much, or make much noise. "All done Miles" I say handing him some pain killers, and a glass of water. Miles gulps down the water, and tablets. "Why are you helping me Alex, after all I've done to you?" Miles says. "Because Miles I love you more than the world" I say and I go over to him and give him a chaste kiss on the lips, to avoid aggravating his injures, or his split lip. "Right come on you, let's get you into bed" I say. "Alright Alex you've only just got here, slow down a bit" Miles says with a weak smile, and wink. Same old Miles flirting and joking, despite the situation. "You know what I mean you daft bugger, now get up, come on you can't stay on that counter top all night" I say. "Urm Al I can't move" Miles says with a small cry. I look at him struggling and take pity upon him, I walk over to him and lift him up bridal style, and carry him to his bedroom. I kick open the door and gently put him down, on the bed. "Jesus Alex where did them muscles come from?" Miles jokes. "I've been hiding them all along, waiting for them to be used" I reply. "Well thank you Alex and I mean it, would it be to much to ask, if you can come and lie with me?" Miles says. "It's no problem at all my love" I say and go and lie next to Miles. I cuddle him wary of his injuries, until I hear his heartbeat settle into a steady pace.
