I wake up and feel content, for a first time in a while. I just lay and listen to Miles breathing, warmth is radiating off him. Soft pillows and covers engulf me, making me feel like I'm on a cloud. I certainly feel like I'm in heaven when Miles is around. I look over to him and take him in. I feel like I'm drinking in the information, but I'm not quite sure why? Maybe for song lyrics later on? I for sure could write a 100 songs just about his lips. Miles suddenly wakes up, his eyes fluttering in the early morning sunglight, that escapes through the blindes. He breathes something inaudible, and I start to worry "Hey Miles just calm down, alright?" I say. "I thought you would of gone Alex." Miles mutters. "I think we both know, that I couldn't leave you Miles." With that I get up off the bed.
I wake up to utter perfection, despite the pain. Alex. Alex is still here, despite everything that's happened he gets up, and disappears for a few minutes. I know that he's not gone out of the flat, because I can hear movement in the kitchen, and the faint echo of a record. I must of drifted off to sleep, because by the time I wake up there isn't light coming through the blinds. I rub my eyes and panic. What if Alex has left now he knows I'm okay? A million questions race around my mind. I feel sick. I jump out of bed, cursing as I forgot momentarily about my injuries. A bit more carefully, I get out of my room. I look for Alex around the flat. He's no where to be seen. Although, I do notice that the flat is now spotless. Alex must of cleaned before he left. Surely that means that he still cares for me right?
After Miles awoke, I decided to make him breakfast. When I returned to his room he was fast asleep. Not having the heart to wake him up, I leave him in peace. I cleaned the whole flat top to bottom. I noticed that there was still some signs of when Miles had all them girls around, for example under wear and other stuff disguarded on the floor. My heart sunk, but I needed to forgive and forget. When I had finally finished cleaning the flat, I realised that I had almost thrown all of the contents of the food that Miles owned in the bin, as it was out of date. So I decided to go for a walk to the shop, to get some food . Before I went I checked on Miles, he was fast asleep.
I waited, and I waited, and I waited. Why was I still waiting for Alex when he has surely gone? I let that sink in, what a fool I have been. I lay on the sofa, and i cry floods of tears. That's until, I hear someone near the door. I run to the door and see through the peep hole that it's Alex, i swing the door open grab him. Whatever bags he is carrying are now on the floor. I push him against the wall. Alex looks surprised, I don't even give him a chance to explain, before I'm smashing my lips against his. It feels like a force reconnecting again, one that should never be broken. Eventually, we stop for air and I unpin the other man from the wall. "Well hello to you as well Miles." Alex chuckles, but I'm not finding this funny. "I thought you left me, when I woke up you weren't here." I mutter biting my lip, and feeling my cheeks go a bright shade of red. "No love I went shopping, and I didn't want to wake you up because you looked sweet." Alex says shrugging off his leather jacket and sunglasses. Alex starts to put the shopping away so I help him. "Look Alex I just want to say thank you for sticking by me, no matter what I've done. How could I ever repay you?" "Ooh I'm sure I could think of a way you could repay me Mr Kane, don't you worry about that." Alex says with a smirk, and a wink.
So here I was getting my 'Payment' to Miles' dismay, my payment wasn't sex. Oh no something a little more let me say, selfish I guess. I look down into Miles' eyes, as he slowly traces his lips over the end of my cock. I nod encouraging him to go on, he precedes to put that little filthy mouth to work. In no time, he has my whole cock down that pretty mouth. I let out a moan, he's pretty dam good since he's never done this before. Now Miles is more confident, sucking at a steady pace, I can't last much longer and come in his mouth with a loud moan. He swallows it all, before letting my cock out of his mouth with a little pop. I ride out my high "Miles that was so good". "Glad you enjoyed it la" Miles says. I notice that he is really hard and I almost laugh, "Oh shit what about you?" It's fine Alex I will just get off in the bathroom, or something" Miles says disappointment clear in his voice. "Oh okay then Miles, I will clean up here." I say innocent as ever. I watch as Miles heads to the bathroom, he glances over his shoulder. I make a big deal over 'getting cleaned up'. When I hear faint moaning, I head to the bathroom which stupidly Miles has left open. I sneak to the door and luckily Miles isn't facing it. Miles is repeating my name over, and over again. He comes in no time. When he's finished, I snake my arms around his waist, and kiss his back. "That was great love, what were you imagining me doing to you that made you come so quick?" I say smirking. "No no nothing I mean" Miles mutters pulling away from my embrace. "Maybe I could make them fanatics of yours come true, sometime?" I ask. "Yeah that sounds great Alex, I'm going in the shower now." Miles says embarrassed. "Okay love I'll leave you to it." I say and walk out of the bathroom.
I go over to the kitchen and make me and Miles some pasta. Miles eventually emerges hair still wet, and cute as ever. By the looks of it Miles only has his dressing gown on as well. Miles sheepishly pours two glasses of wine for us, and sets the table. The dinner is ready, so I serve up and sit down. "Hey Alex since when did you learn to cook?" Miles jokes to break the silence. "I am not to sure really Miles, I guess with touring so much I just picked up some basics" I say. "Well this is pretty good Al" Miles says. The rest of the meal is spent in comfortable silence. After dinner, I pronounce that I'm going on the balcony for a smoke. I stand outside and watch, as the smoke whirls into the night sky.
I can remember exactly when I had become accustomed to smoking. I do remember the first time I tried a ciggie. It was me and Matt in secondary school, Matt was more sociable than me. Matt when to parties and did normal teenage stuff. Whereas, I was different not exactly a nerd, but not exactly popular. I was popular to some extents though, for example Matt who had been my next door neighbour and my friend since primary, all of a sudden got a lot more popular at secondary school. Of course Matt never abandoned me, in fact he always invited me to the parties or whatever. I just wasn't into them, I would prefer to practice in our band (mostly I wrote lyrics, I never thought that we would become big, but I still wrote a ton of lyrics anyway. It was a good excuse not to do something. At that point I didn't even want to be the lead singer the band, i was way to shy and I still am now sometimes). Anyway, I remember it well, it was a cold crisp day and it was only a couple of days, till the winter break. Me and Matt were walking to school as we did everyday, when Matt just casually pulled out a cigarette and started smoking it. Me been a dim witt, i stopped in the middle of the dam road, and nearly got run over by a car. "Jesus Alex you could of died" Matt shouts. "Well well you were smoking then I I well I dun dunno" I splutter this was the height of my stutter, when I couldn't conquer it as good. "Alex it's only a ciggie man, here try one" Matt says. " I look at the cigarette and think, fuck it why not? I choked at first, on the smoke then I relaxed and started to enjoy it. After that, me and Matt would casually smoke, and I've done it ever since.
Miles joins me on the balcony, i light one up for him. I place it between his slightly swollen lips, before turning back to the view.
