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12.

"Opal wake up!"
I opened my eyes,but only half way through.

"Opal are you alright?" Raphael said touching my forehead with his wet hand

I couldn't say a word.I was speechless.That dream was.It was super intense.It felt so real.

Raphael looked me in the eyes.Deep with concern.
"I'm gonna get you some water okay?"
All I could do was nod.It was only a dream,but why did it feel so real?

He ran quickly to Ferrari and he came back with the skin bag.I was lying on my back.He put the skin bag close to my lips.I drank the cold,refreshing water slowly.

"Thanks." I said while smiling faintly
He gave me a weak smile,but his eyes had tears in them.

"Big baby." I said while pinching his cheeks
He smiled while a tear went down his right eye.

"I'm alright silly." I said while trying to sit upright.While trying to be strong.

Raphael came and sat next to me.

"I was so worried about you.
You really startled me.One minute I was getting dressed and I called your name,just to see if you were okay.I yelled about 10 times then I realised that something was wrong.I looked around then I found you here.You seemed unconscious then I realised that you're dehydrated.Are you okay?"
"Um,yeah."I said though I knew inside that it was partially a lie.

That dream was so intense.Me dead?Such a silly thought.I'm healthy and quite young.

"What happened?" Raphael asked while pulling me from my thoughts.
"I just sat under this tree and I fell asleep."
"Thats all?"
"Yeah."

I thought about telling him about my dream.Perhaps he could tell me who that voice was.

"There was a dream too."
"What sorta dream?"
"It seemed more like a nightmare.I was in a cemetery,wearing a wedding dress.This voice was talking to me.It was gentle,yet commanding and soothing at the same time.I also saw my name engraved on a tombstone.It only had my date of birth on it." I said almost in tears.

I inhaled some air.
"It scared me the most.The thought of me being dead.I can't think or even imagine it."
"Why are you afraid of dying Opal?" Raphael asked while looking deep into my eyes
"I-I just haven't done alot with my life you know.I have riches and all I ever wanted,but I don't have what I need."

Raphael looked slightly confused.
"And what do you need Opal?"
"I need love,I know clichè right?But really I need love.I need somebody to hold.I need someone by my side.Somebody to joke around with.It's pretty hard being in a huge house alone you know.Money doesn't buy you happiness, they say well now I know it's true." I had tears in my eyes.

Raphael seemed to be thinking,then he smiled.Then he gently brushed my hair.

"Opal I hear what you're saying,but do you really think that love is what you really need ?"
"Um,yeah.That's what I need." I said,slightly disappointed by his response

He smiled again.
"Opal do need a man?" he said while laughing
I blushed in embarrassment.
"Well,what you need is not a man.You said that you're into business right?"
"Yeah."
"So why don't you know the difference between a need and a want?"

He had a point.
"A need is something you can't live without,it's essential for your survival.Whereas a want on the other side is linked to your desires and is the very opposite of a need.You can live without a want.I know the difference Raph." I answered while feeling myself.

"So you know that.Opal you can live without a husband,but without God you can't live."
"I don't seem to understand."I said politely
Raphael looked deeper into my eyes.

"Opal a man can't give you joy.He can't offer you peace.A man can't promise you a brighter future.Only God can.You see married couples,do you think that just because of that ring they're happy?"
"Yeah I guess."
"No-I guess." Raphael said trying to mimick me.
I gave him a gentle punch on his muscular chest.
"Firstly prepare yourself Opal.Just to make life easier for the guy.Know your worth.Know who and what you are.Happiness is found in Jesus.Call me some religious freak,but trust me I'm telling you the truth."

Wow,that guy was pretty smart.Like,way smart.Woah.He had a point.I had to learn more about God.I believed,but not that much.I had to grow.

"Raphael will you teach me more about God if I help you learn how to read?Even if you say no I'll do it.I'll still teach you how to read."
"Yeah absolutely when do we start?"
"Now."

Gals,guys whoever y'all are.☺
Your joy can't be found in a 'boyfriend' or 'girlfriend',but much rather in Jesus.Only He can give you peace,joy,redemption,forgiveness and eternal life.
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I'll give you a challenge:
☆Pray and tell God about all your fears.Try it.God listens to whomever.No matter what you've done in the past He listens. You're not the only one who's made a mistake.The Bible says that nobody is blameless,we've all made mistakes.I made alot of mistakes myself,but He forgives and He still loves me.
Just try this out.
Trust God.
Not me.
Just try.
Just.
Try.
It.
Out.

love:N.M.M
❤