It Was You! (Joker x Reader)

Chapter 31

Joker P.O.V.

After dropping (Y/N) off at the Garcia's family. I headed straight home. I realized I haven't bond with my daughter, when I'm supposed too. So today I decided to take a day off and be with her.

I got home and walked through door entrance. Once I closed the door, a little human being ran up to me and hugged my legs. I looked down a saw my princess.

Mya:"Daddy! You're finally home!" she hugged my legs tighter.

I kneel down and hugged her.

Joker:"I missed you princess! How are you?" I move a strand of hair away from her face.

I looked straight into her eyes and saw how they sparkled of joy. Her eyes remind me so much Harley...

Flashback

I came home late at night, after shooting up a club. I place my long purple jacket on the sofa and looked up. My eyes met my beautiful wife, standing at the doorway, smiling, with her hand over her stomach. By now she was, 7 months pregnant. 

Harley:"Hi, Puddin" she whispered as she rubbed her belly.

Joker:"Hello sweetie. And hello to you my sweet child!" I pecked Harley's lips and kneel down next her stomach.

Joker:"Daddy can't wait to meet you, princess! And to hold you, kiss your little toes, stomach and your chubby face...I love you..." I grinned and softly laughed.

I look up at Harley and her eyes were glossy. I stood up and looked down at her, since she was shorter than me. I cupped her face and kissed her passionately. We both pull back and hugged her. She laid her head on my shoulder, as I place my hand above her's on her belly. She glanced up at me, making me look at her. I took a minute to gazed at her beautiful features. A strand of hair, fell over her face. I carefully move it behind her ear and tucked it. Then I met her beautiful ocean eyes.

Joker:"I love you" I said softly

A smiled spread across her face.

Harley:"I love you too." she whispered back.

End of flashback

Mya:"Daddy?" she said worried

I quickly looked at her and smiled.

Joker:"Yes, princess?" I my smile grew bigger.

Mya:"What happened to mommy?" 

Then my smiled vanished away instantly. I felt everything around me stopped. A rush of cold sweat ran down my back and my heart accelerated.

Mya:"Dad" she called again.

I looked down at my feet. Memories and thoughts ran around my head, making me dizzy. I groan and carefully sat on the floor. Mya took a step closer to me, checking if I was ok. 

I knew someday I had to tell her. But that someday, came by real quick. 

Mya:"Daddy? Answer my question" she said.

I slowly look up at her blue joyful eyes that turned dark. I was shocked at the moment. I never seen my daughter like this, it was like if I was looking at myself. Her eyes was full with pain and anger, her eyebrows furrowed and her lips tremble. I immediately hold her arms and spoke.

Joker:"Mya-" I tried to talk to her.

Mya:"WHERE IS MY MOM?" she yelled and broke down into tears.

I felt so raw at the moment, like there is no skin over my pain and the wind makes it bleed.

Joker:"Mya...listen to me" I began.

Joker:"Your mom...she...s-she passed away..." I lost my voiced at the end.

I saw her eyes burst out like the dam. It was as if every sound that escaped her mouth was set to a frequency that would shattered my heart to pieces again and again and again. I tried to ignore her cries of pain as I struggled not to breakdown. 

Mya:"It's all your fault..." I heard her mumbled.

I stood up and looked at her with disbelief.

Joker:"What?" I soflty said.

Mya:"IT"S ALL YOUR FAULT!!! YOU KILLED MY MOM, Y-YOUR A MURDERER!" She screamed.

Joker:"Mya...Please don't say that" I rapidly blink.

Then she said something, I never wanted to hear in my life.

Mya:"I HATE YOU!" she ran off crying.

I was slowly loosing my mind. I stood up and walked over to my office, and faced the wall. My face creased and my fist closed so tight, I can feel the sweat trapped inside. I let a few tears slip out of my eye. But the more I tried to hold back, the more tears would pile up until I couldn't hold any longer. A huge wave of emotions, took over my whole body. I collapsed to floor and banged on the wall. It first started soft, then each hit, would become harder and harder. Every word she said stung. Only fueling the fire that burned inside of me. Every violated phrase was like a gasoline to it. My fist clench harder as I punched the wall and my jaw rooted. When the final mento had been added to the coke inside of me, I exploded with anger with no control. I punched the wall for the last time, I ended up making a hole. I stood and yelled out brutal words. I grabbed what ever was on my desk and threw it around my room. I pushed everything that on my desk to the floor. I grabbed my hair and yank it. 

After destroying my office, I now was laying on the floor staring at the ceiling. I was surrounded by a few empty bottles of alcohol, broken glass, papers, knifes and guns. I slowly breath in and sneaked in a smile. I started of giggling, then laughing, then end up laughing hysterically. I felt so empty, that the only thing I could was laugh at myself. 

Voices swirled around my head, making me laugh. Then next thing I knew.

I passed out.

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