After I watched the girl jump I headed back to the car. I didn't go to my parents' house. I dont know where but at least I was without him.
My phone rang and Gerards name popped up.
G: Emily please come back I cant live alone
E: Gee we're done. Im gone.
G: you cant just disappear!
E: oh really! Just watch me!
G: Em please come back
E: im living my life alone okay. It upset me as well. I liked being with you but feelings change and I cant control them.
G: Just hear me out
E: NO! im just a ghost. So dont worry. I cant hurt you anymore
And then I hung up. He tried to call me multiple times after that so did frank, ray, mikey and james.
I didn't answer any of them.
45 miss calls
93 unread messages
This had to stop. I parked my car and called frank.
I told him that I just wanted to restart my life. A New beginning. To dissappear. I told them about the girl and that she recognised me. I was going to the funeral no matter what. I was going to contact her parents when they announce she's missing. I just want to help other people. Her. Frank listened. He took it all in. Gerard took the phone. Argued against it all. Said he was going to find me. This made me angry. I hung up and blocked gees number.
I put on the song 'this is how I dissappear' because it matched my mood. Anger. Basically potraying a message that says 'fuck of'. I loved it. I lived it.
I wanted to crash my car into a bridge. Go. The fans wanna see how far down I can go with all of the suicide so just let me go.
I went to the bar and ordered a few drinks. A few turned into a lot. I wasn't even paying for them. I took Gerards credit card. I wasn't stupid. I needed money and I didn't have it.
By the end of the night I was drunk. I needed somewhere to stay. I wasn't going back 'home'. But I had sonewhere else. Someone else in mind.
Frank.
A/N
Wooo chapter three dun.
Next is the sharpest lives which is one of my favourites so I'm going all out on that one.
This chapter was a bit shit so sorry if you dont like it. I was hoping it gave off an angry vibe but it probably didn't.
Thnks fr rding my stry
Bye x
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