Venom (Tsuzuku X Koichi)

Chapter 10 - Fading In and Out

Koichi's Pov:

The feeling of a wildfire that had spread through me, burning every place it got to and taking me with it finally came to an end. There were lights, bright lights that later I noticed were attached to the hospital ceiling. It is the first clear that I can remember; everything else was an utter blur. The lights, the sounds, the movements; they all faded in and out as I lost and gained myself back forth from the darkness.

I remember at one point I was okay, that my other band members were with me; we were talking and happy. We were making plans for that to do next, plans that didn't workout.

Then something happened I am not sure exactly what though, though whatever it was started that while fire in me again. This time it kept on burning; brighter and hotter than before. My vision started to blur again just like before. I felt myself being pulled by the darkness again.

Then I saw figures in the room, I didn't notice that had even come in.

They all stood there as if they could feel the fire in me too.

Then other people came they rushed around me and took me out of there.

Those three figures remained there though; were they my friends, my bandmates. I really couldn't tell.

The darkness dragged me back in and I thought that would be the last of my existence on this earth. I was wrong with each spiral of burning pain and darkness came a memory.

The first time we got together as a band, Tsuzuku's first birthday we celebrated together, the first day of Tsuzuku and I being together.

Each memory helped me survive and live a little bit more.

The people around me were moving more faster than I could keep track of them and then they put this mask on me and the darkness won the battle I had been fighting to win. It was within those moments I noticed there was no more dripping noise in the back of my mind, and the fire within was slowly dying out again.

What was the point though if the darkness had already won, I asked myself.

Then the more I thought about such things others came to my mind; three drips it was that I once heard. Three drips because of each band member that hadn't been affected. What would happen if I wasn't the only one; would it go down to two drips, is that what I would hear?

Oh God, I didn't want to find out.

The darkness lifted from me once again just a blanket of white snow slowly melting away. I looked up at the lights on the ceiling again like I had once before. I tried to move, I tried to speak neither of them worked.

Whatever these people, the doctors had given to me must be keeping me down. I wonder if it had also affected my voice as well or that the fire that destroyed that part of me.

Tsuzuku's words came to my mind at that moment of thought, I think he was lecturing Meto about something when he had said it.

"When you feel like you can't speak nomore, then it's time to move on and find a new voice."

I think it was when Meto had first joined the band and we had discovered that he wouldn't talk. Now maybe I could use Tsuzuku's advice for the situation that I am in now. I was thinking this through when I heard footsteps getting closer and closer.

A lady in a white uniform entered the room is what I saw when I turned my head towards the door. She came and checked everything that was needed to be checked about me, before telling me I was slowly recovering.

Then it was only a few minutes later that MiA and Meto entered the room running to my side and hugging me tight. The nurse must of told them that I was awake. I wanted to tell them that I was okay though my throat seemed still on fire. I fought against though remembering Tsuzuku's advice.

Tsuzuku?! Where is he now, why isn't he here?!

There was only one way to find out; to ask.

At my strongest moment ignored the burning at the back of my throat and let a whisper.

"Guys...I am okay...where's Tsuzuku?" I asked before laying back down as I looked up at my friends. I had little to no energy in me to sit up and talk yet.

"We are glad your okay, we got so worried about you. And Tsuzuku went to the hotel to rest. We haven't had sleep in days." MiA said smiling softly.

I just nodded with a smile at least I knew that everyone else was okay.

Meto pointed at MiA's phone and then at MiA and we all understood that he wanted us to ring Tsuzuku and tell him the good news.

"Good idea Meto." MiA smiled and picked up his phone speed dialling our lead singer's number. I could hear the ringing from here.

One ring, two rings...three rings; yeah we would tell him the good news if he would just pick up his phone.