Continuing with Chapter 3
Shannay's Point of View
"Shannay wake up Ms Gil is here" I heard Yolanda said to me. My head was on the desk and my arms was wrapped around my face. Yes I was sleeping. My eyes felt like it was getting pulled down by sugar bags. They didn't want to open. Serve my right for staying up on the phone too late to my baby. I ignored Yolanda one of my friends from school because I just know if this teacher mess with me then it's peak cause I don't ramp with my sleep.
"Shannay..!" Yolanda whispered very loud in my ear hole. I lifted my head up and saw the teacher looking at me. I stared back at her without saying a word. She didn't say anything to me and she just walked out. Ms Gil is the deputy head teacher by the way. She takes learning very seriously and she's strict. I looked at Yolanda and screwed her and put my head back down on the desk falling asleep. I aint really in the mood just kept on thinking what Brianna done yesterday cause she's trying to break me and Jordan up because she might be a bit jealous that I'm spending more time with him then her. But if she ain't on all of that she might just be looking out for me but I know it wasn't Jordan. Fair enough he's done it once but he promised me not again.
It's break time now and I'm so tired but I'm actually going to try and stay awake. I left Yolanda in her class because like I said I just want to be away from her maybe for this break time. Anyways she's got Bailey to jam with even though they ain't that close.
"Yoo.." I heard someone said from behind me. I turned around to find Danny my sexy goon. I bet you lot are expecting someone that mixrace? Nope! Maybe now you lots are expecting that he's light skin? Nope! Danny not even black... he's white but he is so sexy. I reckon he's the sexiest white boy I've ever seen and I ain't bitching. I have secretly fallen for him but that all changed when I met Jordan.
"Danny" I said with the biggest grin on my face. I walked up to him and gave him a hug.
"I thought you was excluded?" I asked him.
"Yeah I was but I got another chance. I just can't fuck it up" he replied. I was really happy to see him I hugged him tighter. Me and this dude are so close it's a shame he's not a girl because we would have been closer then me and Brianna but never that even though am mad at her I still love her to bits.
"So bestie what you saying?" he asked me putting his arm around my shoulders and we started to walk slowly.
"Oh am yur bestie now?" I replied.
"Yeah man..!" he replied. I just smiled that's all I do with him. Smile (
We kept on walking and talking chatting up since I have seen him in like 3 months. I just kept on looking in his beautiful greyish-blueish eyes. It got me bare sprung and ting.
"So what you doing now... what's your next lesson" Danny asked me. I came back to reality just when he just asked me that question.
"Huh" I asked.
"I said what lesson you go next?"
"Ohh urm... I'm just going to go home after break. I'm just going to say that I feel very sick to the reception. I really can't be bothered for school"
"Why babes?"
"Cause... I'm tired and I'm just not even in the mood"
"But I just go back today... so what you wouldn't stay in school for me" he asked smiling.
"Nah sorry... you know am quite selfish. Sorry Danny... I'll call you later and make it up to you okay"
"That burned" he said. I laughed at how cute he was. I gave him a last hug and then walked toward the receptionist as they let me out the school.
I was walking to my house thinking to myself about Jordan and how he's not doing anything today and how I should pay him a unexpected visit and maybe just maybe if I can find the energy to give him happy days. I doubt it though. So I made y mind up within a second to give Jordan and unexpected visit and went all the way to North West.
At this point I'm 5 mins away from his house and I just came off the bus and put in m headphones. I was listening to some proper slow jams like jheez. I moving my head to the tune as all sorts and thinking about Jordan and me getting close and down to business. It was beautiful in my eyes. I can't believe I've even lost it when I lost it. I was one of them girls that was like 'I'm not having sex until I'm 18' and all that. Look where am standing now boy. Who ever is saying that I' pretty sure it would happen the way you planned it to. But anyways I turned off my music and took off my headphones. I took out the key I stole from him and opened the door. The whole house was silent but I heard noise coming from his room. It sounded like the TV so I just he was in his room. I opened the door and saw Jordan in his room near his window as if he was bunning. Then I looked to his bed and see some next girl sitting on the edge fixing herself like she was leaving. I was really confused on why she's here. I was silent while I watched him blow the toxic air from his mouth out the window. She clocked me and didn't say nothing. I dropped the key on purpose on his laminated flooring. He looked up and turned around to see me. Boy he looked high and even though the window was open... its hot in here. It smells and it's a familiar smell I'm smelling.
"Rah what you doing here?" Jordan said.
"What do you mean what am I'm doing here. Can't your wifey see her man... plus I pissed of with school and I wanted to see you. Is that a problem?" I said. He didn't even reply. It made me feel clingy and desperate in front of this girl but hold on a second... who the fuck is she..!
"Excuse me... who are you not to be rude" I asked her. She fixed up her hair and got up from the bed.
"She's a friend" Jordan replied calmly just staring out the window bunning. She didn't reply with her mouth like she wasn't allowed to. I just kissed my teeth and then waited patiently while this girl gets out my mans yard. Then surprisingly something came to my attention where I saw in the bin a used condom. It didn't take a genius to work that out... I just really don't want to believe it. Maybe it's a misunderstanding and it's not his and his cousin dom? Maybe it ripped out the packed and he just put it in the bin? I don't even know the right answer. The pain and rejected feeling came onto me while I clenched my teeth together to overcome my anger and hurt inside. I didn't want to show that I'm a little pussy even though I am one. I tried so hard to hold back my tears and when I hurt the front door close which told me the girl is gone.
"What the fuck Jordan... go and fuck yourself. Why cheat on me again... why..!?" I cried to his so hard bare walking up to him. He expression was relaxed and had no expression.
"Why Jordan... what's wrong with you it's like you don't love me anymore..!" I cried even more. He remained the same... no expression and relaxed. It made me even more furious knowing he didn't really seem to care about me and how I feel. How much I changed for this boy is unbelievable. I just took my anger out on him by hitting him and crying and shouting. I wanted him to pay attention to me which he wasn't doing at the moment. Then all of the sudden he just grabbed my hands and the pushed me on the floor. It hurt my bum because it was a hard fall. I got back up somehow and then done the same thing again but this time with more anger... saying stuff I don't even mean. This time he wild out boy. At first he strangled me until I saw different colours in the room. Then he banged my head on the curb of his bed thinking this is wrestling and shit. I had one coco on my forhead and I was really really dizzy. I was laying on the floor for like 15mins thinking to myself how the fuck did I get from school to his boys house. I didn't remember nothing. I didn't know where Jordan was I just wanted to get out this house. So that's what I did I needed to get out of this house. I thought Jordan loved me. Now he's abusing me and shit like what is this? I know he's got a yute and all that but that has nothing to do with me and his love... I never want our love to fade away. I give him everything he wants. When he wants my pussy I give it to him. When he want's money... I give it to him. When he want's creps... I buy some for him. Don't get me wrong he buys and does stuff for me as well. But we're like we're actually married how husband and wife carrys on. But this what is happening right now ain't right. I don't know what to do....
Stay Locked (
