Teddy Bear - Phan AU

Chapter 1

Dan's POV

I looked out my window hoping that Phil would look across at mine. He wouldn't go to school. He wouldn't text me. His mum was always texting me, giving me details as to how he was doing. I couldn't stand it. Imagine if you hung out with your best friend almost everyday for 11 years and then one day they just stopped talking to you. It was maddening. I felt an empty void every day cause there wasn't anybody to share my day with. Sure, there was Clarissa, my girlfriend. But we will never be as close as me and Phil. Phil never liked Clarissa and I can tell. He always gave her the dirty eye and he hated the " cool " kids. She was popular and smoked and was very different from Phil and I's nerdy demeanor. I had had a crush on her since grade 9 and Phil knew that. When I finally got up the courage to ask her to the Spring Formal Phil did not want me to go with her. We were planning on going as a group with Pj and Chris, but then she said yes. Phil didn't like it but he still supported me and Clarissa and I had been dating ever since. 

I missed Phil like crazy and I couldn't handle it. I decided I would go see him. I put on my shoes and jacket and went down the stairs. 

" Mum! I'm going see Phil! " I yelled to my mum as I walked past the kitchen. 

" Dan, wait! " she said and ran to me with a tubberware full of chocolate chip cookies. " Dan, and tell him his second mum misses him. " she said with a sad smile. I kissed her cheek and walked out the door with the tubberware. I walked down the pavement for about 20 seconds when I got to Phil's house, who was literally my neighbor. I took a deep breath and walked up to his door. I walked in because this was basically my second home and went to find Diane. I walked into the lounge to fine Diane watching a cooking program. She looked at me and smiled. 

" Dan! Its so good to see you. " she exclaimed and wrapped me in a hug. I  hugged her back and she told me Phil was in his room. I walked up the stairs  to Phil's room and knocked. 

" Mum, I'm not hungry. " Phil said through the door and I opened the door and poked my head in.

" Are you sure you're not hungry for cookies? " I said in a woman voice. He laughed and I opened the door more. " Dude. What the fuck? Why did you leave me to have to go through school all by myself? " 

" You had Clarissa. " he stated.

"Yeah, but dude, you're my best friend. I mean I missed having you around and why did you just drop me like that? To be honest, it hurt Phil. " I confessed and stared down at my hands. I looked up at him and he was staring at my face with a small sad frown. I got up and sat on his bed with him. Phil and I cuddled sometimes, but we always did since we were kids. We would hold hands but in England holding hands was a sign of some kind of relationship and we had a friendship.

He sighed and put his head on my shoulder and I put my head on his. " I'm sorry Dan. I've been going through a lot and the last thing I wanted to do was interact with people. " he softly confessed.

" Phil, I am always here for you. You know that, right? " I whispered to him and he nodded. " Phil what has been bothering you so much that you have to ignore me? ".

" Dan, ...... I think I'm gay. " he stuttered out and blushed profusely. I stared at him in shock. I mean I thought I could tell when someone was gay but Phil never gave off that impression. Maybe he just hid it well.

" Dan. Say something, please. " he whispered to me and looked up at me. I grabbed his hands and turned to look at him.

" Phil, no matter what sexuality you are I will always be here for you. I am so proud of you for telling me. " I stated. His eyes glossed over and he yawned which was a sign he would cry. He wrapped his hand around my neck and I embraced my best friend. This was my Phil. Wait... that sounded wrong. This was my....... soul mate. We clicked like flame and gasoline. I mean he meant so much to me. His adorable and innocent personality and the way he stuck his tongue out when he laughed.

Dan, stop. You can't think like that about your best friend. Yeah, it would be amazing to hold him and to stare in his eyes and kiss his soft lips. Fuck! Stop Dan! You're straight and you have Clarissa. I noticed Phil's soft snores and I chuckled. I softly laid him down on his pillow and smiled at his slightly open mouth. I closed the tubberware and put it on his side table and softly walked out the door and went on my way home.