Teddy Bear - Phan AU

Chapter 6

Phil's POV

I couldn't breathe. All I felt was heartache from the moment she got there. Yes, she hugged me. But she was dating Dan and I don't know how I can keep surviving this. She gets to call him hers. She doesn't deserve him. He didn't know he was just one of her many fuck buddies. After I left I knew what was gonna happen. But when I went to my room, I definitely knew what they were doing. Close your blinds next time, Danny. I closed my blinds and slammed my door since no one was home. This was why I tried to stop seeing Dan. This was why I left him for a week. Because I didn't wanna hurt so much. Knowing that he's never gonna love me like I love him. I felt my warm salty tears flow down my cheeks. He was so oblivious to us. We already acted like we dated and I already came out to him. How can he not piece two and two together!?!!? He's so stupid but I love that stupid kid. The way he's always self conscious about his hair, and is always pushing it out the way. The way he looks down when he's embarrassed or when he's blushing. I felt my cheeks heat up just at the thought of my beautiful boy. But, my beautiful boy. My beautiful boy was fucking a girl and I had no control of it at all. I'm being stupid. I can't control Dan, he loves Clarissa sadly. Clarissa, the girl who fucks him and our best friend Peej. Clarissa, the girl who's gonna break my baby's heart. I looked out the window to look back into his room. They were thankfully over and she seemed to be getting dressed. Dan sat in his boxers on his bed, staring at her as though she was God's most beautiful creature. She kissed him and walked out the room. I groaned and decided to head downstairs for some lunch. I skipped down the stairs as I flipped through Spotify looking for a good song. I put on ' Time is Running Out ' by Muse. I heated up a microwave dinner and got lost in the song. The hard melody hugging me and breaking me at the same time. I heard a soft knock on the door as the beep dinged that the microwave was done. I jogged to the door and opened it to see him.

" Hey. Clare just left and I got bored again. " he said and wrapped his arms around my waist. He smelled like sweat and sex and I ruffled his sex hair.

" Wow, who knew your hair could be even curlier. I guess that's what sex does to you. " I chuckled at him and his cheeks lit up like a bonfire.

" How did you know? Were we that loud? " he said and winked at me.

I hit him on the arm playfully, " You know, maybe you should close your blinds next time. "

" Oh my god, are you serious! So you and anybody on this side of your house could see? " he said embarrassed.

" Umm, yeah. Don't worry, aint nothing I haven't seen before and nobody else is home. " I had just noticed the bag of take out in his hand and eyed the back obviously. He chuckled and put the bag on the table, pulling out a small Chinese take out box. He handed one to me and I thanked him by kissing him on the cheek. I grabbed a couple forks from the kitchen and threw away the disgusting microwave dinner. He sat cross legged on the couch and I felt mischievous. I sat down on his lap and he groaned out, not in a sexy way. I laughed loudly at him he flicked me on the back of the head. I scooted over and sat next to him, keeping my feet on his lap. We ate in silence, but a warm comforting silence. The kind of silence when you just enjoy the others presence. We finished the mildly cold take out and lazily laid it on the coffee table. I laid my head on his shoulder and he put his head on mine. I looked up at him and he looked down at me sexily. He didn't mean to, but then again, he never means to. His hair laid in front of his eyes and his lips taunted me. They were pink and chapped, raw from kissing her. But I didn't care about her in this moment. His eyes swam in mine and his hand reached up to cup my face.