Teddy Bear - Phan AU

When

I think I've been telling lies

Cause I've never been in love

Everyone falls for the sunshine disguise distracted by who their thinking of

I'd rather date an idea

Something I'll never find

Sure, I live in the moment, but i'm never happy here

I'm surrounded by greener looking time

Am I the only one wishing life away? 

Never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay

Memories painted with much brighter ink

They tell me I loved teach me how to think

I'll take what I can get

Cause I'm too damp for a spark

Kissing sickly sweet, oh it's cause they say they like my accent

But I'd only ever see them in the dark

I'm sick of faking diary entries

I've gotta get in my head, I'll never be 13 again

And I'm waiting to live, still waiting to love

Oh it'll be over and I'll still be asking when

Am I the only one wishing life away? 

Never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay

Memories painted with much brighter ink

They tell me I loved

Teach me how to think