Just 1 more day into this year. I'm at Megan's house right sleeping over. Its 4:37 AM. I drank a monster and I'm having thoughts. Another thing is kind of on my mind now. It isn't bad but it adds to thoughts. I can't sleep anyway. I think I might just do an all nighter. I'm not celebrating new years tmmw anyway, I bet its just gonna be another shitty, bad, broken year for me..
I feel like nothing is getting better... I admit, I have thoughts of "doing bad things" and it just keeps getting worse and worse each day... Ever since that 1 day... Everything its going downhill.. I lost something so important to me... If that's the case... I lost something that was my everything... Depression is really kicking in right now... Just laying in complete darkness looking at my phone screen and blacking out a lot on these stupid thoughts and other thoughts too. I sware to god.. I hate myself... My life... Just everything. I wish someone would just hug me and say everything will be okay but no... That doesn't happen. I have a feeling it won't ever happen... I'm just... Broken..into tiny pieces. I'd wish you would just come back ok? 😢
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NonfiksiSome days I will write in here of how my days really went. This is a non fiction book. I usually will publish at the end of the day or anytime of the day.
