Eddsworld One-Shots ∆x!Going Through Major Editing!x∆

depressed Jon x Matt

requested by jbroekhuizen

warning! contains self harm and suggestive themes.

Jon's P.O.V

I sat in my room looking down at my new and old scars that i made, it made me feel better after what Eduardo and Mark say and do to me. If only they knew the pain i was going through without them making it worse. I sighed as a knock was heard on our door, "Jon,  get your fat ugly arse down stairs and answer the f*cking door!" Eduardo shouted at me from downstairs. i walked down the stairs shakily and walked over to the door, as i opened it i saw someone i didn't expect to see.

"Oh! Hello Jon, do you by any chance i could talk to Eduardo for a second?" It was Edd. i was confused but shakily nodded and opened the door to let him in. then i saw Matt and Tom behind him.

"D-do you want to c-come in too?" i asked in a soft small voice. Matt nodded like a kid and ran in after to Edd, Tom shrugged but walked in anyway. i shut the door once he walked in and went to walk up stairs and went into my room to continue cutting myself before Eduardo called me down to answer the door. After making 5 more cuts up my arm i heard my door open and Matt walked in, as fast as i could i tried to cover up the cuts and blood but he already saw them.

"J-Jon? What are those cuts on your arms doing there? Are you okay?" he asked walking up to me and sitting down in front of me, i sighed and teared up.

"No, I'm not OK. My friends don't even like me, i hate myself and everything about me. And to make it worse Eduardo and Mark hurt me physically and emotionally, they don't even care about me. I did this to myself because it helps with the pain. I'm a waste of space. i want to kill myself but every time i try to my 'friends' walk on in me and stop me from doing so. They don't know i cut or anything only that i tried to kill myself once after my mother died. Not even my own sister Aimee knows about me cutting." i cried out as i went into a ball and sobbed.

I heard footsteps and people coming up to me. i felt a hand on my shoulder, i looked up only to see Eduardo looking down at me me with guilt in his eyes, mark then walked over and hugged me. i tensed up, shocked. i felt someone else hug me. "we're sorry for making you feel that way." Eduardo said to me and Mark agreed.

then i felt others join the hug and looked around me to see everyone hugging me. i smiled for the first time in months. they all backed away and smiled at me, then Edd shouted something about watching a movie and having a party. everyone agreed and they walked out my room.

well everyone but Matt he just sat their and smiled at me, "people care about you Jon. Don't let anyone tell you other wise, even yourself." he spoke softly moving closer to me, i blushed and looked into his eyes. "Jon I know someone loves you out there, you wanna know why I know that?" he asked me coming closer to me.

my cheeks flushed, "w-why?" i asked nervously. His face was so close it was almost touching mine, well our noses touched, as i blushed even more, then i felt something soft push agents my lips, my eyes bulged as i felt Matt hug me lining in more, i fluted my eyes closed and kissed back softly and put my arms around his neck.

The kiss was soft and loving. Then Matt broke away from he kiss smiled at me and said, "because i'm the one who loves you." i blushed and smiled back.

"I love you Matt." i replied, then i heard shouting from the living room. i looked towards the door and then back to Matt, he smiled as he pulled away from the hug and stood up holding a hand out to me. i gladly took it and stood up we then walked over to the door still holding my hand and walked down stairs, looking around the room i found my sister siting on Eduardo going to punch him, he already had a black eye, she then looked over to look at me and smiled she jumped up off on Eduardo as he grunted, ran and bear hugged me. "Jon! I'm so sorry i didn't know you was doing that to yourself, i'm so sorry." she cried as she hugged me. my sister looked a lot like me, brown hair and black eyes, only they were bigger, like Tom's.

i patted her back and smiled at her once she backed up, "it's OK Aimee! Also why was you sitting on Eduardo going to punch him?" i asked her as she looked at the floor shamefully and scratched  the back of her head.

"er, about that. i heard what he did to you from Tom so i beat him up for you! hehe" she said, i looked t Tom to see him smirking at my sister.

"but mark did it as well." Matt said to her, she looked over at mark angrily as mark got up an put his hands up in surrender she walked over to her but Edd grabbed her.

"calm down Aimee." he said to her like a mother would to her child, Aimee looked like she rolled her eyes and responded sarcastically.

"yes mum." then she sat down next to Tom and looked grumpy.

"are you sure your not Tom's twin or something?" Edd asked as me and Matt walked over and sat down on the floor holding hands still. She looked at him then glared.

Tom then had the verve to say, "time the month?" he got a smack from her and he smiled at everyone. 

i looked around at everyone and smiled, i may just like living now. i felt Matt lean towards me and whispered in my ear, "love you."

"love you too"

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