Mackenzie's Story

Chapter 10.

Saturday
Today we are supposed to leave for a competition but I certainly wasn't going .. I hadn't shown up to dance in 3 days.
I've been in bed during those days ..haven't eaten anything.
I can't find the strength to get out of bed
I think my mom is sorta worried .. she comes in here everyday and talks to me but I try my best to ignore her.
Greg came in here the other night I know what he came in here for but he ended up laying next to me and just talking.
I was relieved because I'm too weak to put up a fight and I didn't want him to think I was allowing him.
I sit up in my bed looking for my phone .. I've heard it buzz and ring for the last three days but it's been silent for a few hours now I think it died.
I get up and look for it..
It's behind my desk I grab it and plug it up so it'll charge.
I go into my drawers and grab a pair of light jeans, t shirt that says babe in white letters and a blue flannel and head into the bathroom
I needed a shower desperately.
After about 20 minutes in the shower I got out and combed my hair out
I then moisturized and got dressed.
My phone buzzed once again and I walked over to it to see who was texting me.
I saw a bunch of messages from Brooke K.
Then I saw the messages from Braiden
He texted me worriedly wondering where I had been.
I put my white converses on and walked downstairs
I saw Greg and Maddie with our little cousin making cookies.
"Kenz...it's nice to see you out of your room" Greg said
My little cousin ran over to me and gave me a hug
I hugged her back but quickly spoke
"I'm going out with my friend Bre"
I lied about who I was hanging with cause I knew if I told the truth he'd say no
"Uh ..okay be back by 8?" He said
But I was already out the door.
I ran to Braidens house which took me about 30 minutes surprisingly
I knocked on the door but no one came so I knocked again louder
"Coming coming.." I heard a women say
She opened the door and looked at me in disbelief
"You're the girl off the television" she spoke
"Uh yes...is Braiden here" I asked
She had a questioning look but before she asked I quickly told her I was a friend and that I needed to speak with him, she allowed me and called his name soon after I heard feet trampling down the steps
"Mackenzie!" Braiden said he looked so happy however he had a big bump on his head and it looked painful
"I thought you had acted on what you told me ... I was worried " Braiden said
His mom clearly got the message that we had a close and personal relationship so she left us and went on to check on his younger brother.
"Nope I'm alive for now" I joked but that upset him I could see it in his eyes
"You shouldn't say stuff like that mac..." but I cut him off before he could finish
"Don't tell me what I should and shouldn't say okay? Things in my life are far from easy" I should've stopped myself because I didn't know his life but I mean surely it had to be easier then my own.
I was walking home now, we got in a fight and believe me that wasn't how I expected that visit to go.
I didn't wanna go home yet so off to the park I guess..
When I got to the park I saw a dealer.. a drug dealer ...that happens to be a girl in my classes brother
I thought no. I'm too young right? I also had the dumb idea that somehow smoking would be better then cutting.
I pulled my wallet out I had $47.
I walked over to him.
"Hi Ethan" I was nervous
He looked up and smiled
"Hey you looking for Tayla?" He asked but I quickly nodded no I guess he figured it out when he saw my wallet
"Oh ...you wanna buy some broccoli?" He asked with a smile
I gave a slight nod.
"I've never.." I started but he cut me off
"It's cool... uh follow me?" He said as he jumped off the beam. I followed him towards the community pool. Their was another playground but mainly the older kids hung out over there when they wanted to smoke or...have sex.. gross right? I know.
He pulled out a blunt and started to light it. He took a couple hits and then passed it to me
"Don't I have to pay?" I asked
"Well it's your first and you're my sisters friend plus I love getting high with a gorgeous girl so it's a bonus for me" He said which made me a bit uneasy with him calling me gorgeous I mean he was 4 years older then me but I took the blunt and believe me I died on the first hit
I couldn't stop coughing and nearly threw up
"I think I'm done" I said with a bit of shakiness in my voice but he insisted I take a few more hits and that in the end it'd be worth it.
So I did.
About 15 minutes later we finished the blunt and I was definitely feeling it.
It felt nice and I was relaxed maybe a little too relaxed because Ethan started to kiss me and I let him.
We made out and 'messed' around for about 20 minutes then I said I had to go.
Before I left he handed me a bag with three pre-rolled blunts
"Hope to see you again Mackenzie" he said and winked
I can't believe that just happened.
What am I thinking.
Well what I was really thinking was how was I gonna get in the house without anyone realizing that I was beyond stoned.
On the way home I stopped in a Walgreens and sprayed some of the air fresheners on me then I bought eye drops
I remember a couple kids in my class saying it helps the red eye effect go away.
As I walked out I stopped on the corner and put some in my eye.
I continued walking however when I got my street I saw that my mom was home.
'Ugh I do not have time for this' I thought to myself.
I unlocked the door and prepared myself to just walk straight to my room but that plan didn't go to well as I reached the stair case
"Kenz..where have you been??" Melissa asked
I refused to turn around honestly I thought 'why not just bolt up the stairs and lock yourself in your room' but another part of me knew if I did I would most definitely have a visit from Greg tonight which I certainly didn't want.
"I went out with a friend today and I'm tired so can I just go to bed" I said
"Mackenzie you haven't gone to dance you can't just neglect your duties" Melissa said
I couldn't believe it since that's exactly what she did. She was neglecting her mother duties she wasn't even my mother, she simply was a creator she didn't deserve that title.
" I can't even believe you how about you act like a mother beca..." Melissa cut Mackenzie off and told her to go up to her room so that's exactly what Mackenzie did.
Emotions were running wild in Mackenzie..
she needed some type of release so here she was again sitting on her toilet as she cut over and over again.
She sat there and stared at them.
She heard her bedroom door open and slowly started to put away her blade and clean herself up when Maddie walked in.
Maddie just stood there as if in shock but why would she be shocked.
"Ma.." Maddie started but I cut her off
"Don't. Say. Anything. You don't care so don't pretend that you do understand?" I was upset she wasn't allowed to say anything she caused this it's her fault I'm this way.
"I do care Kenzi" Maddie said
I laughed " funny way of showing it"
I put my blades away in my cabinets and walk out and lay down.
"Get out of my room right now Madison"
Maddie walks out without hesitation and I can hear her bedroom door slam close.
Slowly I start to drift to sleep ...

A/N
Well I finally did another chapter I know you guys have been waiting decades and here it is so enjoy