Mackenzie's Story

Chapter 3

After mom finished yelling and insulting me she told me to get my dance bag and meet her outside in the car.

I went in my bathroom looking for my water bottle because I left it in there this morning.

I saw one of my pencil sharpeners and thought about unscrewing it and taking that blade out and slicing my wrist but mom honked the horn I found my water bottle grabbed my dance bag and my phone and left.

Once we got to to Abby's she immediately started yelling at me and I was so tired of everyone yelling at me I snapped
"Shut up Abby I don't fucking care anymore! IM NOT MADDIE SO GET OVER YOURSELF!! IM MACKENZIE and that's who I was born as and that's who I'll die as! okay? okay!!"
Abby was shocked I could tell by look on her face.
I just was so sick of being compared to Maddie all the time. it's not fair when I walked into the girls den everyone looked at me even Maddie then Chloe yelled
"Stop staring at her she was only speaking the truth everyone gets compared to Maddie like.. she not perfect because out in the real world the only person who'll think Maddie is perfect will be Abby!"
"IM NOT PERFECT! JUST PLEASE STOP" Maddie started saying "I work just as hard as all of you just because Abby and everyone expects perfection....its hard being me." she said the last part in almost a whisper
Maddie started crying but none of us comforted her
I felt bad I didn't mean for them to turn on her it's just she doesn't understand how it feels to always be put in the shadows of someone else.
My mom was obviously mad at me because when Abby started yelling at me I started crying so I went upstairs to where the moms were I was sitting on my moms lap for like a second and them she started telling me to get off
"Mackenzie be a big girl and get off my lap" Melissa said in a rude/ angry voice
" But mom.." I started crying harder "Abby kept yelling at me and she told I wasn't going anywhere in life" I cried
"Well maybe she's right" Melissa whispered
Holly, Christ and Kelly all heard her and they started yelling at her and telling her how much she favoured Maddie and how wrong of her it was to do that to me while Holly comforted me and took me downstairs.
Holly told me that I was going to go somewhere in life and that I was going to a beautiful woman when I grow up and that she believed in me. honestly that made me feel a lot better.
After we went over the dances and had our regular classes all of us were in the den putting our jackets on and stuff.
We were all saying our goodbyes and laughing
Maddie walked in started rambling about how sorry she was and that she was gonna talk to Abby on her own about it. We all hugged her but I knew the girls didn't forgive her because I most certainty didn't either.
When we got in the car mom said that she was dropping me off at home with Greg and that her and Maddie needed some bonding time. Of course Maddie was eager until she saw the sad expression on my face
"Hey mom.. Are you sure Kenzie can't come?" Maddie asked
I was surprised she wanted me to come after what I said about her today
" I'm sure she needs to stretch and do her homework and study for her test maybe next time." Melissa said quickly
I whispered to 'Maddie thanks for trying I love you and I'm sorry'
'It's okay' Maddie whispered back
I smiled.
About 20 minutes later we arrived home mom dropped me off and let Maddie go in to change
About 10 minuets later I heard the car drive off..
I was taking my shower when I heard a knock on my door
" I'm in the shower! I'll be out in a minute!" I yelled
But then I heard my bedroom door open and close then someone walking into my bathroom.
" I said I'm in the shower" I said again
The shower curtains were pulled and I saw Greg standing there
I tried to cover my body
"What the hell! Greg get out I'm doing this anymore!"
" Yes you are your mine bitch!" he grabbed me and yanked me to my bed and after about 30 minutes of him hitting me.. he then raped me
I kept crying and screaming it felt like hours before he stopped and left
About an hour later Maddie and Mom got home I wanted to tell but I knew they wouldn't believe me I had already taken my 6th shower.
I was taking my 9th shower now when mom came in and kept asking why I was taking so many showers
I told her that it was just my sink and that she didn't need to worry
Once she left I went to find that pencil sharpener and eventually I found it and I unscrewed it and took out that razor.
I went to the sink and rinsed it off at first I was scared but then what happened at dance and what Greg just did and how mad my mom was at me came rushing into my head replaying that entire day..
I took that blade and I cut and cut and cut
It hurt but I enjoyed the pain.. It felt good now I all I have to do is figure out how I'm gonna hide my cuts at dance tomorrow. I didn't worry to much really I was so exhausted from today as soon as my head hit my pillow I fell into a peaceful sleep but not for long because I started having nightmares.

A/N: okay so yes this story will be involving rape,bullying and self harm.
I'm not sure if I should make a story about Clara and Chloe and I'll change their ages to where like Clara will be 12 and Chlo be 16 and it'll be similar to this kinda but not so much.
Also please leave ideas and comment also vote let me know if it's good or not thanks!