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Chapter 8: Revelations Part Two

I was kissing my old best friend.  The crazier thing? My old best friend was kissing me back.

I felt as if fireworks went off in my head. It seemed like the world had stopped. Nothing else mattered but me, Caleb and the kiss that we were sharing. Well, that and the height we were at.

I became hungry. Forgetting for a split second that we were hundreds of feet in the air, I moved in further and the basket wobbled. We clumsily broke the kiss and grabbed the security bar to steady ourselves and the basket. We looked at each other and laughed. Count on us to be kissing in an unstable contraption hundreds of feet in the air. 

I looked at Caleb who was now staring off into the distance. "What just happened here, Cale?"

"Well I think we just kissed," he smartly replied, "and I think I liked it."

I blushed a crimson red along with him. "I liked it too," I said softly. "But I need to be honest with you."

"Oh God...I'm terrible aren't I? The whole thing was horrible and I almost killed us and-" he said, panic etched on his face but I silenced him.

"No, no, no, everything was good!" I said in efforts to calm him down. "I just have a lot to tell you."

"Oh," he said. "Can we talk about it later? Let's just...enjoy the time together." He opened his arm, inviting me in it. I shifted uneasily, for fear or wobbling the basket again, and I snuggled inside him. I drew a breath, inadvertently inhaling his scent.

This felt...right.

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We got back to my house around 1:30. My mom was surprisingly awake, saying that she wanted to wait up for us and make sure that we were safe.

We went into my room and changed into our jammies and then sat facing each other on my bed to do some talking.

"Why did you never tell me that you ever had any kind of attractions to guys?" I asked.

"It just never came up," he began. "It was always clear with you. Declan and I, we weren't as comfortable with it at first. Which, I guess, is why we were able to blur the masculine/feminine lines a lot more...successfully than you." I should have taken offense but it's not like he was lying. I wasn't flamboyant but I was definitely very gay. "After you and Declan got together and started dating, I just...never addressed it. With anyone. Especially since I was crushing -"

He abruptly stopped, looking down at his nails, playing with them. "Crushing on who?" He refused to meet my eyes or answer the question. "Caleb?"

"You," he murmured. He sighed and raised his head, his eyes meeting mine. "I was crushing on you."

I'm pretty certain that my face showed how shocked I was. "Y-you had crush...on me?" Caleb blushed. He did that quite a lot and I had to admit that it was even cuter.

"I did. And I was about to tell you the same day you told me that Declan asked you out." He paused here for a minute, getting up to walk to the window. I followed him there, staring at him as he stared out of the window. "I knew how much you liked him. You couldn't stop talking about him. I wasn't stupid; I saw the longing stares and the excitement when you saw him. I'm pretty sure that you had the butterflies and the pines. I know because I had those feelings too."

"Why didn't you ever tell me though?"

He turned to me. "What would you have said if I did?" I opened my mouth to answer but the truth was that I don't think I would have been excited. I would have tried to let him down easily. I dropped my eyes from his gaze. "Exactly. You wouldn't have gone for it." Caleb leaned on the windowsill. "I wasn't your type. I wasn't sporty like Declan. I wasn't taking Driver's Ed like Declan. I wasn't as cool as Declan. I was about twenty pounds overweight, with a face full of acne and a mouth full of metal. I wasn't Declan and I would never be him.