Your Love Changed Me

Chapter 27: Promises

Hey guys!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 

Here is the next chapter! 


Thanks to @delightfullydark for the ideas for this chapter!

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It was a few days later and Hiccup went back to the house to bring me some stuff. I had been in bed most of the day and wanted to go see my daughter. I buzzed the nurse and she came in asking what I needed.

"Can you bring me to see my baby?" I asked. She nodded and helped me into my wheelchair. She rolled me up to the ICU and to the room Rowan was in. She wheeled me over to her and put my wheelchair break on. She left me alone and closed the curtain that divided the crib and the door to the room. I just watched Rowan. Nothing had changed. She still had a bunch of tubes attached to her and she looked so small and frail. I put my hand in the little space that they had where I could put my hand in and hold hers. I felt her small hand grasp my finger and smiled a little. I just looked at her for a few minutes, taking in what she looked like. She had dark hair on the top of her head and her skin was light like mine. She had a few freckles over her nose and across her cheeks. Her eyes were open and she was staring at me. She had greenish-blue eyes. They were beautiful to look at. From the outside they were green and slowly faded to blue the closer you got to the the pupils. I saw her eyes look around in the incubator, watched her chest move up and down quickly and her legs kick a bit. I smiled a little. I just admired her. 

After a few minutes I started to talk to her. 

"Hi baby girl, it's your mama." I said. "I know that you probably feel uncomfortable right now and I'm so sorry for that. It will be over soon. I promise. I'm sorry you're going through this. You don't deserve this baby girl. Your twin sister didn't deserve to get sick and not survive." I felt my eyes filling up with tears as I talked to her. "I promise I will do whatever I have too, to protect you. I promise I won't let you go through what I did. I won't let you get treated like I did. I want you to have the best life you can have. I want you to go to school, and college. I promise you I won't let you end up like me. You are so special to me. I love you so much. I've loved you since I found out I was having you. Even if I was terrified and didn't know what to do. I will raise you well and love you with all my heart. I won't treat you how my mom treated me." I had tears streaming down my face now. "I love you so much baby girl."

"Astrid?" I heard a small voice. I didn't say anything. I felt two hands on my shoulder and looked up to see Hiccup. He had a small smile on his face and I sighed and looked back at Rowan. 

"What if I screw up?" I said. Hiccup kissed my head. 

"You won't." Hiccup said. 

"I already have. I lost one of them and Rowan is in here." I said. Hiccup sighed. 

"Astrid, it's not your fault. You know that. You couldn't have done anything." Hiccup said. I sighed and kept my eyes on Rowan. He kissed my cheek and I looked at him. He wiped the tears off my cheeks and eyes and kissed my forehead. I smirked a little at him. 

One of the nurses came in with a bottle. They started to undo the locks on the top half of the incubator. They picked Rowan up causing her to let go of my finger and she started screaming. The nurse wrapped her up in a blanket. 

"Do you wanna feed her?" the nurse asked. I looked up at her and nodded. She handed Rowan to me and she stopped crying when she was in my arms. The nurse moved the wires so they wouldn't tangle up. I looked down at Rowan and met her eyes. She stared at me, the nurse handed me the bottle and I started to feed Rowan. Hiccup had taken a seat in a chair in the room. After I finished feeding her the nurse took her back and put her back into the incubator and closed it again.

It was getting to be later in the day and Hiccup rolled me back to my room. I was able to have a shower and put on some of my own pajamas that Hiccup had brought for me. I was brushing my hair and put it into a side braid. Hiccup had brought some of his stuff too. It was getting late and Hiccup was sitting on the bed with me. I laid my head on his shoulder and he kissed my head. 

"I love you." He said to me. I smiled and held his hand and played with it. 

"I love you too." I said to him. I leaned up and kissed his cheek. "Thank you Hiccup." He looked at me confused.  

"Why are you saying thank you?" He asked. 

"Because, you've done and given up so much for me. You really do love me." I said. 

He smiled and kissed me.  

Soon afterwards we fell asleep. 

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YAY! another chapter done! 

Hope you guys had a good new year! 

Bye for now!!