Living with Joe Sugg

The beginning to the end!

A/N

 Hey guys sorry long time no update, I've been busy, this is the final chapter of this book. i would like to thank all my readers for the continuous support through the last few months. i hope you've liked reading Living With Joe Sugg as much as i have, i couldn't ask for better readers then you, thank you so so much. This isn't the last you see of me, new stuff coming your way soon !

-Hanna x :)

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Jess' pov 

its been a few months, a few months since i got the call, a few months since i left the busy streets of London to return to the depressing, gloomy life that i once lived. Living with Joe made me almost forget anything that had happened in the past, anything that i thought would stick with me till the day i dies, but things changed and so did i. 

it was just over 4ish months when my mom phones, it was no later then 3 in the morning. i remember the hoarse to her voice as the tears could be heard from down the line, the forever silence around me seemed to freeze as the earth shattering news was given to me.

It was explained to me that he was in no pain, the car hit him head on, there was no chance he could have been saved. my dad was driving home from work, it was the usual Saturday night, him rushing home to put his feet up and watch the football game that he never missed, but this night he didn't manage to see anything after the accident. It was told that the other driver had a heart attack, he was an old man well into his 70s, swerving into the opposing traffic. Unfortunately colliding with my dad, the pair of there cars found crumpled in the road. 

I remember the moment the tears came flowing out, my loud sobs met with nothing but silence. Joe had gone out with Caspar, insisting he would not return till tomorrow afternoon at the latest. I wished for his arms to wrap around me and tell me everything was okay, I wished he could wipe away the tears that ran down my scarlet coloured cheeks, but he wasn't here.

I knew my mom needed me, there was no doubt about it, i needed my mom also. we were both venerable and something inside me kept taking my thoughts back to joe, back to his childish smile that he would have after every time we locked eyes. I couldn't drag him into this, he didn't want no depressing lump that would do nothing but cry on the sofa while making her way to the bottom of a biscuit packet. He deserved the world, just not my world. 

I made the decision to leave, i made the decision to do what i thought was right, what i thought was right for not just me but joe also. I rushed around the apartment, collecting my things stuffing them into the bags. I grabbed a piece of paper from my desk, tears making a large stain as my scribbled writing wrote out the words to the end. 

Im really sorry, i love you, i always will. but i need to go, I'm not sure if i will come back, living with you was the best experience of my life, we have memories that i will remember till my dying breathe. you deserve the world at your feet, and i hope you find it one day. 

love always 

Jessica  

i cried out once more before collecting my bags from my beg, resting the piece of paper on the kitchen table, knowing he would find it there. I took one last look around, my eyes watering as i remembered the fun we had experience in theses four walls. I would hate to know what they'd say if they could talk. 

I took a deep breathe before walking away, walking away from my once perfect life, walking away from the peace and love that i had experienced from a single human being, something i thought wasn't possible until i locked eyes with the brunette.