Burned Out Flames

Chapter 8

Wow. Was all I could say after that day. We only had small talk but never a full conversation. But maybe all we ever had was small talk and continued on with our lives. Not to mention homecoming was coming up so we were both pretty busy. I wasn't complaining though...Or was I ? I shouldn't be complaining about not seeing him and I won't , I refuse.

*Next couple of hours*

" I'm not going to the homecoming game ".

" Why not ? Don't be such a bummer ".

" I'm not interested and you know this ". Lela began to look upset at me and I don't blame her , her own best friend didn't even want to have fun with her.

" I'm so sick of your shit akilah you've been a pain in the ass and I'm tired of it. You got a nice guy who made a mistake trying to come back into your life and is willing to take things slow for your Pete's sake even though he wants you badly and you won't even give him a chance , you're being inconsiderate ".

" Oh and you think you've been big help ? Whenever I need you the most you're running off with some guy ".

" You don't want my help , you're asking me what should you do when I clearly tell you to give the guy a chance but you already made the decision that you won't take him back so what the hell am I doing wasting my time on you , stubborn ass ". She walked away after that and I haven't seen her for the rest of the week, damn I was that bad of a person.

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I never went to the game , instead I stayed in my dorm and slept all day. I didn't have the energy to do anything, I was feeling a little gloomy and not in the best mood. It would have been nice to have someone come and make my day but I couldn't even have that. I wasn't much of a social butterfly so the only people I ever spoke to on a regular basis were Lela and Archer but now I don't even have them to talk to. I pushed Archer away and eventually Lela. I really was a bad person ,weren't I ? Or maybe I was too stubborn for my own good. I wanted to apologize for being such a bad friend over the past few weeks but I didn't even do that. I was too caught up in my own world , too selfish , too inconsiderate , too stubborn. I blocked out everyone's feelings and only cared for my own , that was the problem with me.

There was a knock on the door disrupting me from my thoughts and I didn't want to open it but I did anyway. " Where were you tonight ", Archer said. He wasn't in his uniform anymore but he looked as if he just got out the shower with water drops dripping from his hair to his jawline.

" I was here ", I spoke quietly. " Why ? I was looking for you at the game ". " Even if I was there you wouldn't have found me in a full crowd ".

" Trust me I would have found you ".

" I guess , What do you need ? ".

" I need a tutor ".

" Alright , I'll tutor you. Just let me know when ".

" Seriously ? I don't have to beg or anything ? I even came up with a whole speech ".

I shook my head , " No I can help ".

" Ok , how does tomorrow sound ?". " Sounds good to me ". " Good...are you okay ? ". " Not really ". " Do you want to talk about it ? ".

" Maybe later ".

" Alright , good night ", He stepped forward and hugged me when I was least expecting it. I didn't fight it , I didn't complain especially when I needed one the most so I wrapped my arms around him and I didn't want to let go but I did eventually.

" Good night Archer ".