Burned Out Flames

Chapter 2

Waking up early in the morning after a long night awake was a pain , especially when thinking about the past. But usually when everyone is asleep and you're alone awake , you find peace.

Then , your mind seem to wonder off and think of the most infinite possibilities of the greater good.

But there will be times when you're not in your right state of mind and you think of all the horrid things you have ever been through , the what if's that may or may not happen.

At times you cannot control what you think but you can control how you think and how you see things.

Sometimes you just have to flow with the wind life brings and see where you end up , if not anything else I'd say it's fate , something you cannot control. Fate always has its way.

But getting out of bed and getting ready to hear your professor talk about the wrong things at the wrong time was another thing.

Spending my money on a drink that barely helps me stay awake during class is such a waste but i do it anyway. I didn't even reach class and I am greeted by the loudest early bird i have ever met.

I still love her though , she's the sister I've always wanted. I've known her from the beginning of middle school and since then we decided to be two ordinary girls fighting against the world.

" Good morning sunshine ", She smiled in my face. She was right , it was a good morning , everyday you wake up its a good day. " I don't understand why you're so cheerful this morning " , I sipped my coffee.

She smiled even wider walking beside me , " Because life is good ", she said. Is it really ? " Ah so you slept with him ? " , I replied. She shrugged.

" Maybe , maybe not ", She said. I sighed and looked towards her , " After what he did to you and you still chose to fall into his trap ? " , I said.

" Haven't you ever heard of forgive and forget ? " , She asked. Sounds like a bunch of bullshit to me, " You can always forgive but you can never forget " , I told her.

" Well i forgave him and forgot about the past and i think that's something you should do as well " , She told me. " Sorry that's just not how i function , if he did it once then he can do it again ".

The rest of the way to class was silent and I didn't mind that at all. I took my seat and pulled out my laptop and signed into my account. I don't understand how it was so easy for people to forgive and forget. What type of nonsense is that ?

I mean sure there's always room for forgiveness but how can you forget such a thing. You have an open wound right in your chest and you just decide to forget about it ?

How can you even do such a thing to yourself when it's causing you so much pain and agony ? But i guess some just heal faster than others.