Random thoughts I have

Jan.6 9:39

Sharing.
I'm not the type of person to share my feelings with anyone. I don't trust many people based off my experiences. One time I learned not to trust one person because I told them who I liked and long story short they told the guy I liked that I liked him. It ended up alright at the end but i lost a lot of respect for the girl that told him.
Love.
I started having interest towards people in like the 3rd grade. I didn't see my self actually dating anyone till middle school. My first crush was this kid named Cesar. I liked him because (I sound so shallow right now) he was cute and most of the other girls liked him. My interest died quickly later on. I liked another kid named Kalel In 4th grade. I actually really liked him but he ended up moving away to another state. This broke my heart so much I cried for weeks. He gave me his number and we video chatted often but we lost contact. This hurt me so badly I didn't like anyone until the end of 5th grade. His name was Dylan. I liked him for a while but I think he ended up being gay.6th grade comes along. Now I have to change names of kids. I liked this kid at the beginning of the 6th grade but I thought he just wanted to be friends so I backed off. So I grew a crush on this other guy josh. I spent a lot of time getting to knew him but they day came where I asked him out but sadly he rejected me. I was torn apart by that I thought something was wrong with me. It was not until the summer where I saw the boy from 6th grade a few days before school. I felt my feeling grow for him again. I liked him ever since and now he's my boyfriend. I have never been more happy.
Crying.
I only cry when I feel my world is crashing down. And I cried recently. It just relieves a lot of pain. While I cry I usually listen to sad music and draw.
Dream date.
I don't know why but I randomly just thought of this. I want my first date to be like this. I lay in a grassy field looking at the stars and listening to music I just want to enjoy the others company. It's just so calming to look at the stars. I know this is cheesy but this was one of my dreams since I was little.
Children.
This might sound really bad but I don't really like young children they just seem like a hand full. When I'm older I'm probably not gonna have my own children. I'm gonna adopt a child 7 or older. I'm sorry to my future husband of u want kids but it might not happen.:p
Traveling.
When I'm older all I want to do is travel the world. I don't want to stay in one place. One main place I want to visit is Japan. I want to buy a mini house and just travel everywhere in it.
College.
I wanted to get my doctorate when I was younger but it doesn't appeal to me as much anymore. I just want to get college over with so I can live my life.
It's now 10:38 and I'm tired of writing so goodnight ;)