Random thoughts I have

5:49pm

(This is random but I saw this song and it was really sad but pretty listen to it if you want)

I'm so stupid
I feel sick right now and it's probably because I didn't eat lunch. That was stupid of me. I know I don't eat correctly but, I just always feel like.... I don't know sick? You know that feeling when your body feels like it's shutting down and that shaky feeling you get, that's what I'm feeling.
Oh boy, this again?
I get so upset over the most random stupid crap. I'm a dramatic anxious little bubble.Yet another girl has a crush on him. I mean at this point I've given up just being protective. I'm just afraid I'm gonna lose him. He could have chosen anyone else but why me? The bad thing is the girl that likes him is super nice.
Friends.
I feel like people over the last weeks have shown what they really think of me. Some of them I like but others I didn't quite enjoy. I just can't wait till I graduate. I love my friends and I feel like I don't deserve them:/ I don't deserve a lot of things yet I'm blessed with it. I don't know why but I feel like a lot of people have grudges against me.
Life update: it seems like my life can be happy for like a couple days and then it goes back to being I guess bad. My life right now is okay it's in between something bad happening and something great happening. But I'll get through school.
I got a new house
My new house is freaking awesome i love it. I've been trapped in a small apartment for so long. The bad part about this is its dead silent. At night it feels like I'm floating in the void and I hate that feeling. In this house we are also gonna build a mini theatre.
My taste in music
(None of you probably care you an skip this part if you want)
Panic! At the disco I like the song I write sins not tragedies. Twenty one pilots I like: car radio, cancer, house of gold, tear in my heart.
I like some of Melanie Martinezs songs. I also enjoy Coldplay and chain smokers.
Ukulele
I want to learn how to play the ukulele it just seems fun. I'm gonna make it a goal this summer to learn it.
I'm brain dead right now so if you guys want you can comment topics u want me to talk about. I might do another on tonight if y'all comment something for me to talk about