The Outcasts

You'll Never Understand

I asked you to leave for a reason,
Why couldn't you just do it?
I needed you to leave,
And you didn't care to try and understand,
It was like you were enjoying it,
Do you enjoy hurting me?
I gave you part of me,
I showed you my soul,
I let you in,
Around you, I was so vulnerable,
I let you see me,
I let you hurt me,
And now I regret ever meeting you,
You left me just when I thought you were mine,
I loved you voice, your eyes and your smile,
I loved your words like honey,
Now I realise it was all a lie,
And even when I asked you to tell me the truth,
You still didn't tell me,
You didn't say what I needed to hear,
When I asked you to leave,
You showed me a different side of you,
A darker side, one that I was scared of,
I thought you cared,
How was I so wrong?
Did you enjoy toying with me?
Using me just like a toy that a child would discard,
You made me feel completely worthless,
You made feel stupid, used and useless,
And you couldn't have cared less,
Why did I let you in?
Why was I so naïve?
I should've known what would happen,
I should've known the pain it would cause,
But I let your words hide the truth,
I showed you a side of me that no one else sees,
A side of me that was different from what I let others see,
You said you cared, why did you lie to me?
You made me so happy with them, with your lies,
I loved the way you made me feel,
You made my heart beat faster,
And when I looked at you, my eyes always sparkled,
I guess I was stupid for letting you in,
I was stupid for believing your words,your lies,
You won't get it,
I don't expect anything of you anymore,
I was stupid for believing that you'd actually understand,
But I was wrong, you won't get it,
And you never will,
You'll never understand.